Showing posts with label De' 365. Show all posts
Showing posts with label De' 365. Show all posts

Thursday, May 26, 2011

~* MAY'2011 *~

Time past ..
it's been 5months i worked myself which i haven't got any salary yet ... -.-"
well ... i just wanna shares ... life isn't so hard when you changed ... TRUST me !!!!!
and you might found its even better before you change.
so .. just make the change when you feel so .. never hesitate is the key .. and don't just give so much excuse for being remain tho.


This is what i found ... IF you don't like something , CHANGE it !!!!! LIFE is SHORT !!!! : )



well .. Gorgeous Ave is getting better and better day by days ... i'm sure its getting even better when i trust it will ... so we'll see ... perhaps next month i can get my 1st month salary after so long ?? : ) *winkz*

sometimes some happiness and freedom can't really buy with $ even you have alots.

i'll never know i'll abandoned my blog for so long ... *sighz* well ... nothing much happened for this period of times ...



it's seem so early ... but you gotta feel "awwwwwwww" when you see it .. :)



good bye MAY'2011 !!!! you know how much i LOVE you ??? i gotta THANK YOU for making my days sooooo beautiful !!!! and HELLOOOOO JUNE !!!!! pls be good to me too yea ... LOVE YOU all !!!!

Friday, December 3, 2010

~* RESOLUTIONS *~

As Xmas is getting around the corner ..




As the more Xmas decorations and gifts I saw in the mall ...




As the more Xmas song I heard ( I even heard the 2011 CNY song ) .. *sweats*

I FELT ... 2010 is really going to over ...

2010 was really a special year for me ..

For the special angels I met,
For the new friends I hang around with,
For every book I read,
For every place I went,
For the new decisions I made ,
For the sIcks I fall,
For the obstacles I get over with,
For everyone & everything & every emotions ups & downs I had ...

I'm being so THANKFUL ...

I learned to FORGET & FORGIVE... *even you might not believe but mind you.. dats not ur biz tho*


I learned there is no such things of who's the right & who's false ..

I learned there is no such things of fair & square ..

And this is what we called L-I-F-E !!!

I'm really proud of myself that i learned -->
i'm NEVER LATE for learning ANYTHING !!!! As long as if I want to then I'll be learn.


I hope u got what I mean even it's sound complicated...

2010...

- -> i blogged ( 104) lesser than yr 2009 (193) .. : ( *failed* can i pick it up during this month for another 90 posts ??? *impossible*

- -> i WON a TV from SYABAS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *darn PROUD man !!!* after i knew the salary of SYABAS CEO taken a month then i knew why they are so kind for the gifts *^.-*

- -> i'd a worst pity b'day which i felt i lost all moi frens ... which almost everyone forgot moi day wishes... *sob sob*

- -> i'd a SPECIAL CNY eve & "balik" kampung CNY celebration !!!! even it's hot but still i'm happy as i'm welcomed in toi family CNY celebration tho. And i'd diarrhea on the 1st day of CNY which its so unforgetable & uber FAILED. -.-"

- -> i'd memorable Valentines DAY !!!! : )

- -> i'm ATTACHED on 11th april !!! ; ) nope !!! we are not engage yet.. just we had our pre-engagement ring !! duhhh... mind you ?? :P

- -> i WON when its come to the RIGHTS of a customer from MAXIS !!! *proud*

- -> i went for the 1st Oversea trip with TOI !!! if the singapore doesn't count -.-"

- -> i realized of the actual humanity ..

- -> i learned the LESSON for not gaduh'ing with anyone .. esp G-U-Y .. !!! : P

- -> i'm definitely LOST and digging so hard for a way ... a new way i mean ..

- -> i felt the worst BLACK friday !! EVER !!!!even i don't believe for the black friday tho.

- -> i FOUND the rainbows ... after 2months ... been suffered for the 2months which i'll never forget .. ever !!!

- -> i felt the POWER of the yoga !!! i should resume it as soon as possible .. i knew..

- -> i failed to finish a book which pending so long ..

- -> i bought a LOT of books .. even i can't finish most of them yet .@.@"

- -> i learned to LET go ..

- -> i had a HEAVENly holiday !!! YAY !!!

- -> i'm ALIVE and celebrated moi 101010 in a SPECIAL way which is soooooo unforgetable .
For a better 2011 please ???

- -> i tried to be a half vegan which i think is failed succeed for the first 2 months ...

- -> i really felt to DIE and luckily get REBORN ..

- -> i LEFT for a better HELLO !!!!!!!!

- -> i got moi precious !!!! (:

- -> i learned to have meal ALONE moi-self !!!! *soooo proud*

And that's the lil things i'd on 2010 .. which is so failed as part of it are the saddest stuff .. anyhow i hope the obstacles i get thru with as a lesson and will lead me to a better 2011 and i'm sure it will... that's what i keep telling moi self ... (;

So, it's 2011...
the new resolutions i should make this year as i skipped it last yr .. therefore moi 2010 is quite "messy" i must said.

2011 ..

--> i greedily hope & wish for a BETTER b'day celebration to kick start of the yr !!!!!! seriously !!!! perhaps i'd a teary bday 2010 hence my whole yr 2010 are fulled with T.T too .. So .. this yr !!!! not gonna drop any T.T at all .. pleaseeeeeeeeeeeee..... and you !!! whoever read this moi friends ... don't forget to send in your wishes not in FACEBOOK plsss .. otherwise you are no longer as moi friends !!!! kakaaa... And yay ...i should able to get moiself a holiday just in case moi new works is not really busy .

--> i hope moi precious ... GORGEOUS ave. will grow stronger as it should create its own branding !!! A must !!!!!

--> i hope i able to clean the previous jobs tidy & pass it nicely . :)

--> i hope everyday when i'm awake , moi day is full of task/jobs which i <3 the most.

--> i hope every night before i fall in sleep, i'll remember to be thankful for the jobs/life i'd .

--> i hope i'll earn for the 1st fees for moi upgrades from oversea. *too much* @.@"

--> i hope i'll really enjoy for the way which i choose. (;

--> i hope i'll practice for a healthy lifestyle ... :) rest , sleep & eat well ..

--> i hope moi toi will practice the same lifestyle too .. no more sleep late !!! (:

--> i hope i'll read more books . Esp those books i'd pending for so long @ half.

--> i hope i'm brave enough to go for a 10days medication ALONE to knew a pure moi-self !!!

--> i hope i'm brave enough to go for a 10days backpack moiself in bali !!! to find moi guru perhaps ?? :P

--> i hope i able to do whatever i feel to before i'm ready commit to build a NEW family .

--> i hope i deserve an unforgettable proposal and not a homereadythenamustreadytraditionalchinesewayofmarriagearrangebybothfamilytypewedding before i'm ready to commit for a NEW family. *hintz BEHB !!!* ^.*

--> i hope i'll stay healthier *this what i HOPE the MOST !!* i hope moi angels do hear me.

--> i hope i'll stay happier ..

--> i hope i'll make more friends & less enemy..

--> i hope i'll travel more .

--> i hope i'll pray more.

--> i hope we'll learn to spend less & save more for our HOME .

--> i hope we'll communicate more instead of misunderstood.

--> i hope we'll LOVE each other more instead of ignoring both.

--> i hope i'll LOVE moi parents MORE !!! as i knew they LOVE me too.

--> i hope i'll keep learning .. for everything.. from everywhere & everyone.

--> i hope for whatever i HOPE can be come true!!!!!!!! :D


NO!!!!!!!!!!!!! i ain't greedy , am i ???? i didn't hope for LOTTERY tho .. i just hope for a smoother
LIFE !!! ain't this normal ????

Well, it's the end of the year.. i really hope all the sickness should come to an end.

Dear angels, i ain't doing any bad things in moi life, i shouldn't be treat with so much pain, so do moi family .. please do give me a healthier body & life afterward .. pls.... no more migraine, no more sinus and no more pain.
Thank you & i love you.

And last but not least,
DO really Wish i able to go over the obstacles while "building" the Gorgeous Ave. And so that i can help others to be GORGEOUS as well . : ) Don't you think so i can ???


Thanks 2010 . Goodbye & i LOVE u .


HELLO 2011. i LOVE u too !!!!!!!!!


What's ya RESOLUTIONS then ???



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Friday, November 26, 2010

~* 最后一天... *~

时间: 放工后... 

地点:  明天起将不会再是我工作的位子上... 至少明年起,我不会再在这出现..
心情: 兴奋... *不解*

--------------------------------------------------------------

在离开这我工作了10年有多的地方前, 我想好好的为自己写篇"东东" . 
我知道这些"东东" 一向来都是我尽量的不去面对又不说的事.

很开心... 为自己拍拍手 . *拍拍..*

很纳闷... 对于所谓的"家人" 

很无奈... 谁叫我生出来就是张"坏脾气"脸, 而我又无法像她人可以"假惺惺"的以不一样的脸来对不一样的人... 

我承认我失败... 

在我工作了整10年的地方里,我做的都不是人教的, 我学的都是自学的.. 或许我真的做错了.. 但是,我从来都不给予改变的机会, 原因??? 所有人都说(认定的说) 我不会变...对于我最在乎的家人也是如此的认为.. 

事实真是如此吗???

如果, 时间可以重来.. 打死我, 我也不会选回这条路 !!!!

我真的只想说,
 
当你们用你们那可贵的手指着说我错时, 你们凭什么??? 

当你们用你们那可贵的手指着说我有没有想过为何会这样时, 
你们又有为自己想想你们又会好到那里去???

当你们都说 家族工最好打时... 请记得 ... 当你真的做了你才有资格来告诉我说这份工是否好...


曾经, 我笨的以为就算是家族的工.. 但是, 工是工.. 家是家..

所以, 可以的话我不早退... 上班尽量不迟到.. 就算真的迟.. 我也尽量的做迟些再离开... 从来午餐不外出.. 不要求加薪 . . . 不要求福利... 不要求年假... 早前严重得病到死都不拿病假... 可以做的就算是洗厕所.. 当小弟... 什么我都做... 因为... 这是所谓的家族的工...

但是, 我错了..... 我错得超级夸张....

原来,家族的工.. 可以迟上班 不内疚... 可以2个小时午餐... 可以提早离开没关系... 原因??? 因为不爽??? 还是太爽呢??? 我真的超级太佩服了 !!!这种人晚上, 他们可睡得稳??? 出粮时, $ 可拿得安心呢??? 或许... 他们都会吧 ... 我只能说, 呆在这里10年了... 可能呆得笨了.. 呆得头脑坏了..呆得不够他人做人要 看什么人讲什么话给什么脸... 我的确笨死了... 学的都是张臭脸... 所以, 我承认我很失败....

10年的工... 没功劳也应该有苦劳... 我也从来不奢侈的要求任何的称赞.. 只要不要有做错... 已经是谢天谢地... 但是, 原来家族的生意.. 未工作满一年就可以要求称赞, 更厉害的是就算做错也不可以被纠正.."老板"要自行的修正...

我真的笨啊....

不过, 我真的很感恩 . . . .

我感恩那些让我看清这世界上, 原来不只是做戏才看的到的"戏"子 ....
我感恩那些看不起我的人 . . . .
我感恩那些让我懊恼的人 . . . .
我感恩那些总是说我错的人 . . . .
我感恩那些跟我吵 诅咒我的人 . . . .

我真的很感恩所有发生在我身上的事与我遇见的人 . . . . .

我奢侈的希望, 有那一天, 我也可以像你一样 告诉全世界... 我感恩因为我有"家人"的支持....
很可悲的事. . . 此时此刻 . . . . 我感觉不到. . . .

是我无能. . . .

所以, 我的家人都认为我无能. . . . 我的错 . . . 我的不对 . . .我应该改 ..
如果是"家人"的话, 为何我从来没听过是她人的不是, 她人的错, 她人要改呢???
连基本的信任我都感觉不到 .. 又谈何"支持"呢??? 

其实, 我要的东西都很简单... 
只要相信我已经改了,变了就够了... 但是, 谁相信了呢?? 

我真的没变吗???

这只是一再的重复告诉我 .... 我并不属于这所谓的"家" .

看到这, 或许还是有人会说我错... 没有不互相支持的"家人" 的... 

我的确希望如此... 或许, 会有那天, 我再告诉你... 当我感觉到时... 

最后, 

还是那一句.... "日久见人心" 会有一天, 你们会发现.... 我是对的.


起码, 我承认我错过... 你呢???当你可以捂着你的良心过你们互相信任的日子时.... 我会祝福你们.... 要久....

我感恩... 我做了选择.....
我感恩... 你们让我做了选择....
我感恩... 我重生了!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

或许, 新的路不会好走....
但是,路是走出来的... 
有一天.... 小路也会变大道.... 

我相信!!!!! 

至少, 今天过后, 我会是快乐的!!!! 人因为梦想而伟大... 我好伟大啊!!!! ^^"


ATTRAVERSIAMO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!  ( let's cross over !!!!! )



P/: 我说不代表我投诉。。我写我想不代表我坏。。长有张臭脸不代表我不快乐。。我还是感恩的起码我对得起自己,就够了,不是吗?? *给自己拍拍手*看开点就没事了。。。



加油!加油!加油!!!!

嘛的,既然没有半点不舍。。




10:10pm





Sunday, November 21, 2010

~* 1st trial *~

1st trial on my "sketchup" works ...
demmit !!!!!!
i'm a genius ... am i ???

downloaded the sketchup ..
go thru the intro video at once..
spent 2hrs+ ..
and i'm DONE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




AWESOME !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i got my own 3D works ...
don't play play ... do you ???
==''

never judge moi book by moi covers peeps !!!!
*blessssing*


step to steps ... i'm in JOY !!!!!!!!!!!
*nervous & exciting too*

Thursday, November 18, 2010

~* Fear kills everything ... *~

Fear kills everything ..
your mind , your heart , your imagination
- via Cornelia Funke-




Definitely it is ..
Glad i'm over ..

my mind is fulled of lotsa imaginations right now ...
my heart is keep telling my mind,

i'm good,
i'm healthy,
i'm happy..

and so do i'm good !! i'm healthy !!! And i'm HAPPY !!!!!!

i see the light ... do you ???

*happy*

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

~* 1 2 die .. *~

After seeking so many specialist ..



Neurologist for migraine ..
Which after had half pill of the medicine ..
I'd fall in sore-throat continue with fever come and go ... :( and flu afterward ..
*demmit hate it*




Opthalm0logist for the blur eye ...
Doesn't help at all pun as they said had something called floater in my eye which can't take it off via medicine and they got not explain for why the floater is dropping off ..

Fuck !!!! I'd to be Blind Blur for another month???





The appointment cardssss ...



And now ....


I'm still sick AGAIN !!!!!!!!!!!!!
Urghhhhhh !!! FUCK MY LIFE !!!!!!!
I know !!!! Everyone is
when heard of it .. So do I !!!!!!!


Whoever love to fall sick ??? I'll want to stay healthy too !!!! i'm so wish for the healthy tho.
Does anyone know how pain I'm ???
All I heard is take good care .. But how ??? HOW ??? HOW ?? HOW ?????????


Nobody know how I want and how I wish to stay healthy ..I bet for N-O-B-O-D-Y .. !!!!!!

I seriously deeply feel 2 die the moment I saw the pills , and suffer the pain ...

I'm in soooooo much pain which I can't tell anyone tho.

The fever, the flu , the sorethroat and I vomit a lot even I only had white plain bread !!!!
Darn fuck !!!!!!! I want tooooooooooo DIE !!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm soooo useless to unable to take good care of my self !!!!!!!!!!!! perhaps i'm born to be a sick worm !!!!! demmit !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

really FUCK my life !!!!




p/s:
maybe i really want to die just i don't want to die now yet . =='
maybe i really want to die just when everyone ask me to take k .. but how ???
maybe i just don't want to die and i just want to say i want to die .. CAN ????



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Tuesday, October 26, 2010

~* 一莫 *~




"今天你好吗? "
"嗯.... "
"好.... "
"为何好??? "
"因为... 还活着... "
"不好... "
"为何不好..???"
"因为... 不知为何还活着.. "
"不是的酱的..."
"人是因为活着而精彩.. 还是精彩的活着... ???"
"目标呢?? "
"理想呢?? "
"行动呢?? "
"病..." 
"借口.."
"懒..."
"理由..." 
"想动..."
"痛..."
"累..."



...... 乱 ........ 




"正能量...正能量..."

Monday, October 25, 2010

~* half BUTA *~

Went for 2nd check up last weekend. Being charged for another bloody expensive antibiotic of 7pills for rm100.











Lil infections for the Nose still..
"cleaning" is still needed tho.









Hopefully I didn't drink lots of it otherwise , later will be lots "stones " inside my body then I definitely can die..










Not sure does the pills or the "angiogram" cause.

My left eye having some seeing problem.

When I close my right eye ..









My left eye see this ..


When I close my left eye ..









My right eye see this ..


And when I opened both eye ..








I saw this ..

I'm getting dizzy and migrane most of the time after discharged .

Doc said literally the surgery and the sinus won't cause this but still she suggest I may seek for neurologist and ophthalmic instead . hope I get the neurologist correct and not like the "angel-gram"


Anyhow Toi said might be I bling'ed too much ???









Or I read too much ???










But it can't be.. If it did how come my right eye sight is ok ???

We went for the draftly checking at the optical shop in the mall and apparently the machine can't read my left eyes degree for the 1st time I went .

Then I tried again for the 2nd time the next day at different shop . The staff got shocked for the reading and he said it can't be as my left eye having nearsighted of 1950 degree which I'm sure that's is half blind for my left eye .


I gotta praying hard that infections gone faster so the medication period end faster then my left eye will recover soon.

Seriously I don't wish when I gotta go shopping with this











And I had to go with ..









This too ...



I wanna get healthy !!!!!! Plzzzzz ...



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