~* De'LuLaMaez *~

~* DECEMBER 2011 *~

2011-12-08T17:33:00.002+08:00

i'm no longer a good blogger or nope.. i never be a good blogger ... or so i never be a real blogger .. i just blog for myself ... zzzzz....

well, how sad .. November 2011 just passed without any memories in the blog tho .

but then , i can said NOVEMBER 2011 is the most meaningful month of the year 2011 . YES !! i ASSUMED and AGREED it is.

in the month, where i spent all the $$ in the month and that mean dec'2011 i'm gonna be so broke.. but thanks god. God always answered more than i asked i'm sooooo thankful.

finally Dec'2011 , the lil crib is done and we moved. it's gonna be a memorable month . i left the home where i stay for 16yrs, i left mum & dad where i stick to them for more than 30yrs. and NO .. i haven't marry yet .. as mostly all the $ spent on the crib , hence ... we have to postpone it.
but then , i felt homesick ... so horrible homesick when i moved.

for the 2nd day i moved i called mum and told her i miss her .. then i cry out loud, then while we going bck and packing i cried, when i saw dad and gave him a hug and i cried, then i hug mum and i cried again ... thy laughed on me said i'm lousy but mind you ?? that's my parents tho. i'm surely miss them ... never take things for granted. i can bet most of you never hug your parent right ?? for one day u didnt do so , u gonna regret then .

till then , i'm still learning how to manage a place where we called it home.. hence really lots i got to learn , but we had great daily routine wakeup at morning , having homemade breakkie, do some house work before leave for works.

hope, i got to learn more and hope toi got to help more :)

all i want to say is thank you & i love you to anyone of you , toi , mum, dad, angels ard me and god.

thank you.

~* not AGAIN ???? *~

2011-10-08T00:03:00.001+08:00

been talked to toi kiddingly said few more days gonna be an anniversary and not sure will that happen again..

sighz... seem like its still bleeding tho.. 

hope sooner its gonna be alright... might b too dusty or too heaty???

~* REST IN PEACE dim sum .. *~

2011-10-05T14:27:00.000+08:00

dim sum came to our family since yr 1999 which given by my sis's friend.. he was so tiny and fluffy when he came to our house..

frankly i don't like doggie much as i don't like the smell especially when they leaking me which dim sum loves to do so.

time past and dim sum been with us more than 11yrs... and he just pass away yesterday @ 04102011

mum called and said dim sum is dead , my heart sank to the bottom and the feelings is so weird. REAL WEIRD. it's like someone you live together with more than 11yrs and suddenly leaving you ... it's kinda SAD i must said.

we really keen to bury it or burn it, we don't feel like just throw it like a "rubbish", he just like one of our family member ..

anyhow mum had sent him to a better place hope he rest in peace..

i start tearing when i on the way home, when i saw his bowl of water then i start to miss him ..

i kept recalled the moment he stared at me while i washing and hanging cloths on monday just a day before he left.. he never stared at me that way honestly .. i think he just felt to say goodbye...

dim sum used to listen to my words most of the time...

dim sum used to have lots "kutu" once he ran out of the hse..

dim sum used to bark to stranger especially when we exist..

dim sum used to be so lovely sometimes .. just sometimes i must admitted.

anyhow still we miss him.. leaving the hse and didnt see him in the morning felt so weird... real so weird!!! i HATE this feelings !!!!!and i miss dim sum frankly !!!!!!!!!

hope he is in better n "kutu-less" world...

you gonna be miss always dim sum..

~* words *~

2011-09-25T16:21:00.001+08:00

sometimes i apologize doesn't mean i'm wrong and you are right...
it just means i value the friendship more than my ego.

if your ego does worth so much, it just meaning all your friendship is worth so less... go and have fun with your little world ..

May all your life filled with lots of your EGO.

kthxbai

~* black wood day 3 *~

2011-09-11T18:01:00.001+08:00

hello my knee ... i'm sorry to see u so ugly.. pls recover soon...

and pls the right knee faster show your "black green" i'm so worry abt your bone when i dont see the color of you..

~* black wood day 2.. *~

2011-09-10T13:39:00.001+08:00

don't know how long it take to get off this thing .. ;(

~black wood ~

2011-09-09T23:22:00.001+08:00

Twisted my feet bang'ed myself on the dustbin, knee down on kitchen floor .. Both knee !!!!!! stupid moi ...

fall on floor not really sure did i twist my arm or palm..

i'm shaking and crying with nobody at home .. i can't felt my both leg .. but i felt the awfully pain on my both knee.. seriously blardy pain .. non stopping crying and lay on floor with my hand on my knee which i knew it can't cure the pain ..

10mins plus .. the pain got off but still i cant really straight my knee .. half crawl and half walk im back in my room .. texting toi an the flow get heavy .. i'm manja'ing .. And he is work and i just try to calm myself ..

seriously its PAIN !!!!!!!!!!!! T.T

~* 爱自己... *~

2011-08-20T23:40:00.000+08:00

终于明白，　原来世界上当你在流泪伤心时，　就真的只有自己知道自己是伤心的．．．就算是你身边最亲的那个都不会知道．．．　真的．．．　

不明白的流了整天的泪，肿了眼睛就还是不明白的心情差了两天，　或许吧．．．　或许，　就只是想发发脾气，又或者只是想抒发自己内心的压抑．．．真的很想任性的不开心的说．．．　

为何每次都是我在处理自己的情绪来迎合大家呢？？
为何每次都是我来迁就大家呢？ ? ? ?
为何又每次都是我在想是否真的是我的问题呢？？？　
难道全天下就只有我是生出来就是错的吗？？　
难道就只有我需要委屈自己成全大家吗？？？
难道就只有我需要永远是排第二的呢　？?

他们不要的你拿去吧．．．　他们不用的你用吧．．　他们不带你带吧．．．　他们会生气的．．　他们会不爽的．．．对咯．．．　就因为都是他们！！！永远都是他们!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 我勒???? 我是谁 ???　我不会生气的吗？？？？？

我不明白!!!!!!!!
为何我就不能学会"自私" 有时是必要的...　
为何我学不会 "自私" 多一点是对自己仁慈多一点的呢？？？？
情绪崩溃的说．．．．　好累．．．　真的好累．．．　
我真的太对不起我的心灵说 . . . 我太压抑了...

好想好想把所有东西都放下．．．　去流浪．．．
真的．．．．　

好想．．．　但永远都只是想 . . . .

p/s：　

可笑的是，
她说：＂　看好他．．．　会有很多人跳上他的车．．．．" 　

看吧 ?? 就永远他／他们都是排先...
拜托　！！！！　去跳吧．．．．　如果任何人都可以跳上他的车的话，　我算什么？？？
难道，　就只有人会跳上他的车？？？
难道，　我的不会有吗？？？别瞧不起人的说．．　

~* TEST*~

2011-08-11T18:42:00.002+08:00

a TEST i found ....

and i personal felt its kinda accurate ...

Five things are happening in your house at the same time. In which sequence would you solve them?

1. The telephone is ringing!

2. The baby is crying!

3. Someone's knocking or calling you from the front door

4. You hung the clothes out to dry and it is beginning to rain!

5. You left the tap on in the kitchen and the water is already overflowing!

In which sequence would you solve these problems? Write the sequence and check below how your decisions were made.

BUT BE HONEST, THE FINDINGS ARE EXCITING.

First write YOUR sequence from 1 to 5 then scroll below and read after:

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Answer:

Every individual point represents something in your life.
On the list you can see which meaning every point has:
1. Telephone represents Work
2. Baby represents Family
3. Door represents Friends
4. Clothes represent Money
5. Tap represents Love Life

Your chosen sequence determines the priorities in your life.

mine goes with - baby , tap, door, phone, cloths

you ???? ; )

~* sighz ... *~

2011-08-07T13:30:00.000+08:00

为何要一而再的让我觉得没安全感 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~* the articles found @ 2006 *~

2011-08-04T15:52:00.002+08:00

found a post sharing in year 2006 via my old blog ... so worth to have a look ; )
it's time i'm thinking how should i sharpen my axe ; )

~Once upon a time, there was a very strong man. He asked for a job from
a timber merchant, and he got it. The pay was really good and so were
the work conditions. For that reason, the man was determined to do his
best. His boss gave him an axe and showed him the area where he is
supposed to work. The first day, he brought down 18 trees. The Boss was
very much impressed and said, "Congratulations Go on that way! Very
motivated by the words of the boss, he tried harder the next day, but
only could bring down 15 trees. The third day he tried even harder, but
he could only bring down 10 trees. Day after day he was bringing down
less and less trees. "I must be losing my strength", he thought to
himself. He went to the Boss and apologized, saying that he could not
understand what was going on. "When was the last time you sharpened
your axe?" the boss asked. "Sharpen? I had no time to sharpen my axe. I
have been busy cutting trees.

The moral of this story:Our lives are like that. We sometimes get so busy that we don't take
time to sharpen the axe. In today's world, it seems that everyone is
busier than ever, but less happy than ever. Why is that? Could it be
that we have forgotten how to stay sharp? There's nothing wrong with
activity and hard work. But we should not get so busy and neglect the
truly important things in life, like our personal life, taking time to
care for others, Taking time to read etc. We all need time to relax, to
think and meditate, to learn and grow. If you don't take the time to
sharpen the axe, we will become dull and lose our effectiveness. So,
start from today, think about the ways by which you could do your job
more effectively and add a lot of value to it. Hope this story has given
you some insight to life, may you be happy always!

"TO HANDLE YOURSELF, USE YOUR HEAD.
TO HANDLE OTHERS, USE YOUR HEART"

~* Lulamae @ 2008 & 2009 ... *~

2011-08-03T17:30:00.009+08:00

Been go thru my old blog today while i'm free during the beginning of month ...
i missed my old blog soooo muchhh !!!!
i'd close it only for invited reader for some reason ..
well ... i do really miss it..
i been blogged lots during that period of time ..
and i got some comments for some post ..
which this new blog don't have.
=.=

when i go through some posts , suddenly i don't like it that much ..
as it's mostly sound so sad and sick.
my life ... how can i go through my life which is so sad and sick ??
perhaps that's the rough life i had go thru to make the present me .
the happy present me i assumed.

those posts and photos had bring backs lots memories for me
which i shall be thankful that i'm still here.

26. 06. 2008
looking at this photo always make me ; )

BALI with the gang wait for the sunrise ...
my GOD !!!!! i missed BALI !!!!!!

photo in the airport is fun too !!!!

22.06.2008

i didn't actually punch her k ???

this fella is getting slimmer ...

*congratez !! *

24.08.2008
girl talks !!! hard to do so nowadays ...
not even yam cha ..
hmmm =='

september 2008 @ club med
awwwwww.... i missed BEACH !!!! i missed being TANNED !!!!

24.10.2008

it's the day ...
the day @ melacca with the angmoh ...
the day i missed you ..

25. 12. 2008

the dearies ...

10.02.2009

the cny ...

22.03.2009

the days with A.M.Y !!!!! or so-called P.A.Y !!!!!

urghhhhh ..... missed those daysss....

and last but not least
it marked something ...

28.08.2008

i assumed ; )

till then ....

live life with no regrets, there's no guarantee we'll be here tomorrow - the notebook of love

ByE ..

p/s: whoever wanna have a looks on my old blog... do sent me a request then ; ) i'll grant your wish ... teeeheee ...

~* 沉思 ... *~

2011-08-02T16:12:00.002+08:00

又是一个月．．．

七月．．．　

你过得好吗？？

不好．．．　

你开心吗？？　

不开心．．．　

你的错吗？？　

是吗？？　

人不为己，天诛地灭... 是真的吗？？？

自私自利... 是对的吗 ???

做末要借题发挥呢？？？　

真的是 TMD !!!!!

~* 09072011 *~

2011-07-10T13:55:00.006+08:00

a day to remember ..

09072011 ...

today onwards, i gotta educate my kids, my friends and even my parents never go for the news from so-called TV/newspaper, GOOGLE it instead !!! its soooo untrue from our local so-called media TV news and NEWSPAPER tho !!!!!

don't get fool peeps !!!!!

do shares this either in your FB, twitter or blog ...

this video had touched my heart ... do you ???

1 malaysia shouldn't be a slogan like those all ~~bullshit~~ campaign our lovely government keep mentioned about ..

i saw 1 malaysia has united in this rally .. so does this so-called "illegal" rally is real "illegal" ??

the things is ..

- this "illegal" rally can be just a "REAL , CLEAN " rally when the government/police didn't set the rally as "illegal"
- it's for sure can be a SAFE and PEACE rally when the police/FRU didn't point the cannon water/tear guns to the protester tho.

and plsssssssss.... please do spread the news to those who are still been fool by those "newspaper" see the truth .. judge yourself ...

last but not least ...
have you REGISTER yourself yet as VOTER ??????
please do sooooo ... you got the duty to VOTE for a CLEAN and better M'sia tho.

~* prayer ... *~

2011-06-03T15:00:00.004+08:00

i used to do a lil prayer every night before i sleep when i can ..
it's like a daily routine for me for quite sometimes ..
i sense the different to be true ..
and i used to be thankful and grateful every morning when i'm
awake in good health or even i'm not enough sleep .. still i'm grateful for it.

and today ...
i did a lil prayer once i step in my shop ...
i prayed for how i'm gonna make the biz much more well ..

i always believed in when there is a will there will be a way ..

so i prayed ..

and

i felt the miracles ... ^.^

i met a girl today ...
i don't know why and my heart keep whispering ..
" does she is the answer angel send for me for my prayer ??? "
every words she talked about seem like
just answering all my Question/prayer tho.

it's soooooo unbelievable ..
and my heart is keep beeping after she left ..

that's sooooooooooooooooooooooo MYSTERY !!!!!
i told toi .. and he said it's a trick ..
==' so i failed ?? or i shall give it a try ??
hmmm....

~* MAY'2011 *~

2011-05-26T13:32:00.003+08:00

Time past ..
it's been 5months i worked myself which i haven't got any salary yet ... -.-"
well ... i just wanna shares ... life isn't so hard when you changed ... TRUST me !!!!!
and you might found its even better before you change.
so .. just make the change when you feel so .. never hesitate is the key .. and don't just give so much excuse for being remain tho.

This is what i found ... IF you don't like something , CHANGE it !!!!! LIFE is SHORT !!!! : )

well .. Gorgeous Ave is getting better and better day by days ... i'm sure its getting even better when i trust it will ... so we'll see ... perhaps next month i can get my 1st month salary after so long ?? : ) *winkz*

sometimes some happiness and freedom can't really buy with $ even you have alots.

i'll never know i'll abandoned my blog for so long ... *sighz* well ... nothing much happened for this period of times ...

it's seem so early ... but you gotta feel "awwwwwwww" when you see it .. :)

good bye MAY'2011 !!!! you know how much i LOVE you ??? i gotta THANK YOU for making my days sooooo beautiful !!!! and HELLOOOOO JUNE !!!!! pls be good to me too yea ... LOVE YOU all !!!!

~* 爱情 *~

2011-05-10T12:33:00.001+08:00

试问．．．　哪个女人不要那样的求婚．．．　

试问．．．　哪个女人不爱那样的婚礼．．．　

试问．．．　哪对恋人在真正的讲了句＂我愿意＂以后真的会把诺言守护着呢？？？　

黑人说：＂　把你正式娶回家是我这十年以来每天都在做的梦．．　谢谢你让我美梦成真．．．　＂　

．．．　多美丽的爱的宣言．．．　

．．．　范范也写得真好．．．　

＂你是我最重要的决定，我愿意，每天在你身边苏醒，就连吵架也很过隐，　因为爱情没有输赢，　只有亲密，　
你是我最重要的决定，　打破未知的恐惧，　就算流泪也能放晴，　将心比心，　因为爱情没有捷径，　只有经营．．．　＂

every vows are easy to made, how many does keep the vows ????

爱情应该本来就很美丽，　只要＂将心比心，用心经营＂每段爱情也都会有结果．．

请不要忘记, 当你说了" 我愿意" .... 请对自己和她/他负债任 .... ;D

~* 120810 *~

2011-03-30T13:25:00.003+08:00

a number that i'll NEVER and EVER to forget ..

NEVER !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm jotting down for a reminder by myself..

i'm darn so FUCKING FAILED !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i can't go through it ... i really CAN'T !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

dear guardian angel ...
i did lots of prayer ... but why can't you please grant my wish ????
why can't you lead me for letting it go ???
why ??????
why must you lie to me ??
WHY ?????????

i'm seriously don't know how to go through it ... please guide me ...

for the first time i'd to run out of gorgeous just that i don't want it to have all the negative energy which while i'd put lot of positive energy in it ...

bless me ... please ....

~* T.T *~

2011-03-29T22:49:00.001+08:00

for a long time I never T.T ..

nope .. I'm not T.T for angry ...

I just heart pain ...

it's really pain I admitted.

..... （ｉ _ ｉ）

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~* b4 the march end ..*~

2011-03-25T22:35:00.001+08:00

I'm far away from moi blog nowadays ..

I do really wonder what make this .. I'd a quite relaxing march if without some own preset "tension ".

I do keep remind myself that the "worry" is no needed but ya know .. worry is an emotion which is uncontrolled I must said ..

what I did is just pray .. meditate and keep "communicate" with the angels myself ..

be grateful before sleep and be bless when awake is what I did . I think it's works... sometimes ..

In march ..

found a really nice car while meeting friend before her bday celebration.

celebrate someone 30th..

went to a "Maggie-favor-aka-super-expensive-steamboat" at botanic.

did some sample nail to celebrate world women days..

went to jolly's bro wedding which served really nice vege .

and nice dessert ..

continue with cool bubble bday celebration in ktv .. (photo haven't loading yet) soweeee..

and went to Michael buble concert !!! darnnnnn NaIS !!!!!!!!!!

toi brought me to have a really Nais burger shop !!! *it's soooooo full*

did some sample to celebrate paddy's day ..

did myself really Nais pedicure .. (^_−)−☆

did myself really Nais manicure ..
(^○^)

and found my most favorite photo of FeB'2011 ..

I just can't spread my leg ... (#^.^#)

and found .. I should let go more ... I just can't do anything to fit everyone .. can I ????

hello APRIL !!!!! should I meet "u" in BALI while there is so much quake recently ????
(−_−＃)

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~* 01032011 *~

2011-03-01T16:22:00.002+08:00

01032011 ...

it's marked the end of February 2011..
February used to pass the FASTEST as usual ..
is the globe go round faster or is US "the human" go round faster as age grow older ???

Last night,
Toi : " How do you feel recently ?? "
moi : " huh ???"
Toi : " how do you feel after the changed ?? Do you feel happier?? "
moi : " YES ... alot .."
Toi : " do u feel healthier ?? "
moi : " YES .. i'm .. "

i do feel i'm HEALTHIER and HAPPIER now.

Especially when i able to do what i'm "dreaming" of ..
it's really do comes true tho.

i'm so BLESSED & GRATEFUL that my parents are start to accept and supporting on what i'm doing.
i'm so BLESSED that i LEARNED every new single thing in every new single day. i DID . and i'm in LOVE with this type of learning.

If you would ask me again , i would say ... i'm so BLESSED seriously.

~* 2o11 ..*~

2011-02-21T23:40:00.001+08:00

superrrr looooooong quick post + lotsa photo ...

yr 2011 start with a session of naissss fireworks with perfect someone is sooooo blissful ...
but if with some stupid piglet then it's way soooooo disappointed anyhow I choose to be bliss still and forget the piglet ..

and it's follow with ...

moi buffdayyyyy !!!! yay !!!!!

having the 1st Lou sang on moi bday

continue with the celebration with bubbles like ... after 20days ???? Still blessed ...
arigato neh...

and CNY just ran in sooooo fast till I only had one free day for my CNY "shopping" with mummy ..

had my own nails did which last 3 days perhaps ??? for some last for more than a week ..
coz I works a lil too much .. I'm definitely happy even it's broke as I'd make lots of others
*hopefully*

last day of tiger yr ..
( 02022011 )

I'd make on time for the reunion dinner .. I'm uber happy...

this yr dinner are darn naissss

with 2 mat salleh visited had make the praying session at night much "riuh-rendah"

do u see ??? they holding joystick n do the praying with us !!!!!! who said Christian are not holding any joystick ???
religion teach us to respect just like we went church we use to do prayer why must m'sian christian had to anti so much for holding joystick is a BiG NO-NO ????

Day 1 of CNY ... (03022011)
I'd my hair braided .. and it's nais which my sis laughed on it ..

the time I went to temple for praying all the aunties praised on it tho .. *proud* maybe it's just so auntie???

we spent our 1st day of CNY at HoME .. darn GooD !!! panadol is our friends and the comfy bed with aircond make our days

we fall sick..

day 2 CNY (04022011)

my good accompany this whole CNY...

had this pretty shot of moi on our way for a short CNY trip .. YES !!! I'm pretty mind u ???

choose the right cozy hotel ..

found the wearbiiiiiit with pretty me of coz...

had the world cutest tiny "love" shape "lorrrrrr maiiiii kaiiiiii ".. tasted AWESOME !!!!!!!

day 3 CNY ( 05022011 )

had myself snapped again !!! nais !!!!!

and a super LC face .. can ???

found the cutie kids playing lami .. felt I wanna join them soooo muchiii..

Day 4 cny ( 06022011 )

the cny "cookies/candy " for us ....

#epicfail.

had the very so-so room services after the injection during our "emergency" stay bck trip ..

Day 5 ( 07022011 )

pampered ourself a naisss breakie afterward .

stuck in Jam on our way bck .. * a-must-thing-to-do-during-cny-is-jam*

luckily make my way back on time for another batch of Lou sang with the gangs !!!!

love to see all the kids grown up !!

day 6 CNY ( 08022011 )
back to work ..

and got buddies for a hse visit at night with pizza served

continue with the 1st short lami session after ..

Day 7 CNY ( 09022011 )
first dinner session v families on CNY ...
superrrr naiss dinners when u had it with all ya love ...

2nd batch of lami with bubbs ...

Day 9 CNY ( 11022011 )

went to frens hse warming and heard lots of jokes for some
stingy aunts ..

found a real Big mandarin orange are still "alive" on it's tree ..

Day 10 CNY ( 12022011 )
visiting a mansion of his boss and watching " I wan to marry a man" 嫁个有钱人... *sarcastic*

watched the fireworks again ..

Day 11 CNY ( 13022011 )

got our's valentines pressie ...

Day 12 CNY (14022011 )

got myself an expensive pressie .. there is a lil voice said I shld buy it and I bought it at rm79.90 .. it's expensive ... but it's worth .

Day 15 CNY ( 17022011 )

found a lovely bag ...

I'm sharing it !!!! but can u pls don't buy ??????? I don't want it to be sooooo common !!!!
I deserved a BB bag !!!!!!
aim for it !!! aim for it !!!!!!

Day 16 cny ( 18022011 )

had Lou sang v bubbles at last !!!!!

continue v the last batch of lami at my place with I lost rm61 in total ...

Day 19 CNY ( 210202011)

had my angpaos counted .

angpaos frm my lovelies ..
papa, mama n BehB ..
*uber blessed*

and I ......

super .......

clever ..............

to ...........

teared it off ...

to end the CNY mode ...

22022011
is the day to work harder for my previous ....

Doing what you love/like make your days mean soooooooooooooooooooo much .. trust me !!!!

asked, believed and received is what I learned from the secret ..

believe it anot it's well depends ... I trust the lil voice urged me to buy it and I'm being soooooo grateful and happy that I bought it.

hello march 2o11 ... I'm coming !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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~* it's finally came to an N ..*~

2010-12-30T23:42:00.000+08:00

When ...

Birthday egg ate ..

When ...

Winter solstice dinner ate ...

When ...

Bubbles annual gathering did ...

It's mean the yr REALLY came to an N .

It's horiiiiday tomolo Coz of the football which I didn't watch.. But it pissed me off .. As I'm not really ready for the yr to an N .

Urghhhh... I don't like this type of feel .. Felt like Its a new yr and I haven't got myself NEW Clothes yet how can it pass just like that ???? And everyone is planning for shopping and their horriday while I'm NOT !!!!!

Anyhow .. 2010 .. Still meaningful for me ..

From nothing ...

Till I got ...

Something ...

A place I'm proud with ...

A place which let me received so many flower in my life .. *thankful*

A place now I show moi
each time I saw this ...

Hope 2011 is getting better n better ...

And I should jot this down ...

During the last weeks of 2010 ...
I been to an clinic which is so full .. As the charges is really cheap tho .

Btw , it's confirmed that I'd cataract !!!!-.-" Hope it didn't get worst till after CNY !!! I just cant leave the shop off 4 weeks after its opening .

That mean after 2011 CNY I'll get myself a 4 weeks off !!!!! Coz of the cataract surgery which doc said it's a 30mins minor remove things but it took 4-6 weeks to recover .. -.-"

And I got the ~~FREE~~ diary on the last day of 2010 !!! A diary to jot down the first customer I'd today as well !!!!

Yayy !!!!!! Positive ... Positive ... Think of the good things and good things is coming !!!!! God bless ..

The last prayer I'll make for better 2011 ..

I pray for better HEALTH for moi family members and everyone include me and you whoever read this ..

I pray for a Healthy WORLD as well .. Less flood, less earthquake, less tsunami and less wastage ..

And okla .. I'll pry myself being thankful all the time !!!

Sayonara 2010 !!!!!

HELLO 2011 !!!! Do u know I LOVE U sooooo much ??!!!!! and THANK YOU for make me felt this way !!!!!

*blessed*

P/s: orhh yea .. Btw I shall have a day off on my bday right ??? Shouldn't I deserve it ?? A day with a good spa .. Good accompany for a good meal then good shopping ??? Hmmm... Plan plan plan ... Ok.. Mayb I shld coz I just waste moi kk trip .. -.-" anyone ???

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~* mehwee kilisssmassss ..*~

2010-12-27T01:41:00.001+08:00

To be honest..

I .. Never been that happy before while I found myself working and others are not during a holiday eve ..

This is what I found.. There is not a "works" when you doing the things you in love with ...

*thankful*

2010 Xmas eve is full with lotsa wishes cum lotsa tasks.

I'm so in rush .. Last touch up and lady mins shopping for the opening ..

Last batch for the gorgeous ave .

And heading for the Xmas eve dinner with friends from hk and continue with drinks which is so unplanned.

For the 1st time in my life ..
I'm heading to a pub for a "countdown" with a sandal .. No makeup .. No pretty dress and no nothing .. Beers and foods cum nice gangs of friends do the talks .

Sometimes we don't really need lotsa $ to be happy seriously.. Sharing and friendship did.

Merry Xmas peeps .. And a happy new yr...

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~* HI GORGEOUS !!! *~

2010-12-24T01:00:00.001+08:00

It's finally here !!!!!
(I'm sorry I was being toooo lazy to blog frm my pc as it's so lack -.-" no choice have to print screen .. ZzzZzz.. )

Well, I was not thinking to do any party for the opening but mummy said its a must. She even asked me to book a canopy .. Duhhhhh.. Moi cute mama .. I just wanna to have a good start for the lil shop and not goin to do such a huge opening for the lil shop tho.

Hopefully all of you who come wouldn't mind for the no enough food or no enough chair or space will do .

I can't even feel the happiness or the excitement of the holiday mood tho. I'm soooo stress that I knew I'm via my "weird" sleeping pose.

I do need a massage so badly, I'm serious!!! Esp after the DIY'ing all by myself .. I can felt the pain of the joint when I climb too much.. Thn a short break for my eye treatment before I start the biz on JAN'2011 ..

I knew it's a good start as I knew It is. Well, I shall blog abt HOW to start a smooth biz afterward . As mine not really are but at least I learned.

Well, that's jot another journey of mine.

I'm so thankful .

Nitez

,
Maegen gew

P/s : I hate the maxis coverage in the new shop of gorgeous which it is always out of services still even after I complaint and they said will fix it but still ... It's SAME !!!!!

Pps : I hate fb new layout as I confuse for the photo tagging !!! I knew I didn't tag all those I felt to invite .. But Plssssss.. For whoever u see this pls don't mind the tagging n you are sill welcome tho.

Kthxbai .

~* pathway *~

2010-12-08T22:23:00.001+08:00

Been slept for only 3hrs last night from 5am-8am as I'm too "kan-cheong" with the Reno works and moi brain refused to stop thinking and worrying hence I'm lack of sleep

I thought I'm lack of sleep but I didn't feel sleepy at all for the whole day long !!! *unbelievable*

And I'm so thankful today task been done perfectly and nicely.
I did sooooo much today which I felt I'm

And I recall back some words ...

Once, gutsy bubble told me ... " choose the pathway once you think back on your age 50, you won't feel regret. Write your once script and do with what you dream with : ) you will success not because of you must become what ever you dream with but on the pathway you try it out, you are there already. Just figure out what you want first. "

Now , I understand for the above statement tho. Perhaps I might not earn as much as I did before for this period of time but I knew if I want to One day in future I'll earn much more than I did before for sure .

The thing is ... When im celebrating moi 31st bday in a month later and when I look back "the pathway " I'm goin thru right now I knew I'm already there even I'm not success yet but I'll one day then !!!

It's really tired for this period of time but I felt so "content" for moi days !!!!

I felt the HOPE whenever I'm awake in the morning and I felt THANKFUL whenever I'm ready to
Isn't it sound so blessing ?????

Remember, I say I'll try to pray more ??? I found this prayer somewhere from moi angel .. And I felt the "spirits" whenever I do the prayer I think I shall shares with you all..

I'm not sure does the prayer related with any religious .. For me, it's a prayer for me to do whenever I felt to communicate with the spirits of universe .

Let's shares,

My destiny is unique & irreplaceable,
my gifts & perceptions are powerful & important.
My needs, goals & desires are an outer manifestation of my inner divinity seeking to express itself for the good of all.
As I realize my dreams I am an example to others that their dreams too have weight & consequence.
As I harbor myself gently and birth my dreams carefully.
I show by the respect with which I treat myself the respect with which all of us deserve to be treated.

- never stop believing is the key -

Take a breathe and count the blessing ...

I really can't wait for the final look for Gorgeous Ave. tho .
*wink*

It's time to

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~* RESOLUTIONS *~

2010-12-03T00:10:00.004+08:00

As Xmas is getting around the corner ..

As the more Xmas decorations and gifts I saw in the mall ...

As the more Xmas song I heard ( I even heard the 2011 CNY song ) .. *sweats*

I FELT ... 2010 is really going to over ...

2010 was really a special year for me ..

For the special angels I met,
For the new friends I hang around with,
For every book I read,
For every place I went,
For the new decisions I made ,
For the sIcks I fall,
For the obstacles I get over with,
For everyone & everything & every emotions ups & downs I had ...

I'm being so THANKFUL ...

I learned to FORGET & FORGIVE... *even you might not believe but mind you.. dats not ur biz tho*

I learned there is no such things of who's the right & who's false ..

I learned there is no such things of fair & square ..

And this is what we called L-I-F-E !!!

I'm really proud of myself that i learned -->
i'm NEVER LATE for learning ANYTHING !!!! As long as if I want to then I'll be learn.

I hope u got what I mean even it's sound complicated...

2010...

- -> i blogged ( 104) lesser than yr 2009 (193) .. : ( *failed* can i pick it up during this month for another 90 posts ??? *impossible*

- -> i WON a TV from SYABAS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *darn PROUD man !!!* after i knew the salary of SYABAS CEO taken a month then i knew why they are so kind for the gifts *^.-*

- -> i'd a ~~worst~~ pity b'day ~~which i felt i lost all moi frens~~ ... which almost everyone forgot moi day wishes... *sob sob*

- -> i'd a SPECIAL CNY eve & "balik" kampung CNY celebration !!!! even it's hot but still i'm happy as i'm welcomed in toi family CNY celebration tho. And i'd diarrhea on the 1st day of CNY which its so unforgetable & uber FAILED. -.-"

- -> i'd memorable Valentines DAY !!!! : )

- -> i'm ATTACHED on 11th april !!! ; ) nope !!! we are not engage yet.. just we had our pre-engagement ring !! duhhh... mind you ?? :P

- -> i WON when its come to the RIGHTS of a customer from MAXIS !!! *proud*

- -> i went for the 1st Oversea trip with TOI !!! if the singapore doesn't count -.-"

- -> i realized of the actual humanity ..

- -> i learned the LESSON for not gaduh'ing with anyone .. esp G-U-Y .. !!! : P

- -> i'm definitely LOST and digging so hard for a way ... a new way i mean ..

- -> i felt the worst BLACK friday !! EVER !!!!even i don't believe for the black friday tho.

- -> i FOUND the rainbows ... after 2months ... been suffered for the 2months which i'll never forget .. ever !!!

- -> i felt the POWER of the yoga !!! i should resume it as soon as possible .. i knew..

- -> i failed to finish a book which pending so long ..

- -> i bought a LOT of books .. even i can't finish most of them yet .@.@"

- -> i learned to LET go ..

- -> i had a HEAVENly holiday !!! YAY !!!

- -> i'm ALIVE and celebrated moi 101010 in a SPECIAL way which is soooooo unforgetable .
For a better 2011 please ???

- -> i tried to be a half vegan which i think is ~~failed~~ succeed for the first 2 months ...

- -> i really felt to DIE and luckily get REBORN ..

- -> i LEFT for a better HELLO !!!!!!!!

- -> i got moi precious !!!! (:

- -> i learned to have meal ALONE moi-self !!!! *soooo proud*

And that's the lil things i'd on 2010 .. which is so failed as part of it are the saddest stuff .. anyhow i hope the obstacles i get thru with as a lesson and will lead me to a better 2011 and i'm sure it will... that's what i keep telling moi self ... (;

So, it's 2011...
the new resolutions i should make this year as i skipped it last yr .. therefore moi 2010 is quite "messy" i must said.

2011 ..

--> i greedily hope & wish for a BETTER b'day celebration to kick start of the yr !!!!!! seriously !!!! perhaps i'd a teary bday 2010 hence my whole yr 2010 are fulled with T.T too .. So .. this yr !!!! not gonna drop any T.T at all .. pleaseeeeeeeeeeeee..... and you !!! whoever read this moi friends ... don't forget to send in your wishes not in FACEBOOK plsss .. otherwise you are no longer as moi friends !!!! kakaaa... And yay ...i should able to get moiself a holiday just in case moi new works is not really busy .

--> i hope moi precious ... GORGEOUS ave. will grow stronger as it should create its own branding !!! A must !!!!!

--> i hope i able to clean the previous jobs tidy & pass it nicely . :)

--> i hope everyday when i'm awake , moi day is full of task/jobs which i <3 the most.

--> i hope every night before i fall in sleep, i'll remember to be thankful for the jobs/life i'd .

--> i hope i'll earn for the 1st fees for moi upgrades from oversea. *too much* @.@"

--> i hope i'll really enjoy for the way which i choose. (;

--> i hope i'll practice for a healthy lifestyle ... :) rest , sleep & eat well ..

--> i hope moi toi will practice the same lifestyle too .. no more sleep late !!! (:

--> i hope i'll read more books . Esp those books i'd pending for so long @ half.

--> i hope i'm brave enough to go for a 10days medication ALONE to knew a pure moi-self !!!

--> i hope i'm brave enough to go for a 10days backpack moiself in bali !!! to find moi guru perhaps ?? :P

--> i hope i able to do whatever i feel to before i'm ready commit to build a NEW family .

--> i hope i deserve an unforgettable proposal ~~and not a homereadythenamustreadytraditionalchinesewayofmarriagearrangebybothfamilytypewedding~~ before i'm ready to commit for a NEW family. *hintz BEHB !!!* ^.*

--> i hope i'll stay healthier *this what i HOPE the MOST !!* i hope moi angels do hear me.

--> i hope i'll stay happier ..

--> i hope i'll make more friends & less enemy..

--> i hope i'll travel more .

--> i hope i'll pray more.

--> i hope we'll learn to spend less & save more for our HOME .

--> i hope we'll communicate more instead of misunderstood.

--> i hope we'll LOVE each other more instead of ignoring both.

--> i hope i'll LOVE moi parents MORE !!! as i knew they LOVE me too.

--> i hope i'll keep learning .. for everything.. from everywhere & everyone.

--> i hope for whatever i HOPE can be come true!!!!!!!! :D

NO!!!!!!!!!!!!! i ain't greedy , am i ???? i didn't hope for LOTTERY tho .. i just hope for a smoother
LIFE !!! ain't this normal ????

Well, it's the end of the year.. i really hope all the sickness should come to an end.

Dear angels, i ain't doing any bad things in moi life, i shouldn't be treat with so much pain, so do moi family .. please do give me a healthier body & life afterward .. pls.... no more migraine, no more sinus and no more pain.
Thank you & i love you.

And last but not least,
DO really Wish i able to go over the obstacles while "building" the Gorgeous Ave. And so that i can help others to be GORGEOUS as well . : ) Don't you think so i can ???

Thanks 2010 . Goodbye & i LOVE u .

HELLO 2011. i LOVE u too !!!!!!!!!

What's ya RESOLUTIONS then ???

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~* X'mas pressie .. *~

2010-11-28T21:54:00.001+08:00

Suprisingly that moi Xmas pressie is coming soooo earlier ..

And never thought I'll have a "champchamp"

Seriously ... We never quote and survey for it ... But still ... I'd one !!!!!!!

You'll never knew how big da paper bag is ....

It's really HUGE !!!!!!

Now you can see when there is a remote control to compare ...

Moi champchamp !!!!!

So details for the wrapping paper tho ...

Red kaleerrrrrrrrrrrr .....

Very nice leather ....

This the most nice details part I love ....

The Charm of the champ ????
Kakakaka....

And the best and creative part to use it is ....

Jeng ...
Jeng jeng ...
Jeng jeng jeng .....
Jeng jeng .......
Jeng ...

Hahahahaahhahahaha.... Upside down now !!!!!!!!

Creative wei !!!!!!!!!

And here's the most pretty photo I'd with moi "champchamp"

Thanks toi !!!!!!!!!
u sooooooooo muchieeeee !!!!!

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~* 最后一天... *~

2010-11-26T20:05:00.002+08:00

时间：　放工后．．．　

地点: 　明天起将不会再是我工作的位子上．．．　至少明年起，我不会再在这出现．．
心情：兴奋．．．　*不解*

--------------------------------------------------------------

在离开这我工作了１０年有多的地方前，　我想好好的为自己写篇＂东东＂　．　
我知道这些＂东东＂　一向来都是我尽量的不去面对又不说的事．

很开心．．．　为自己拍拍手　．　*拍拍．．*

很纳闷．．．　对于所谓的＂家人＂　

很无奈．．．　谁叫我生出来就是张＂坏脾气＂脸，　而我又无法像她人可以＂假惺惺＂的以不一样的脸来对不一样的人．．．　

我承认我失败．．．　

在我工作了整１０年的地方里，我做的都不是人教的，　我学的都是自学的．．　或许我真的做错了．．　但是，我从来都不给予改变的机会，　原因？？？　所有人都说（认定的说）　我不会变．．．对于我最在乎的家人也是如此的认为．．　

事实真是如此吗？？？

如果，　时间可以重来．．　打死我, 我也不会选回这条路 !!!!

我真的只想说,
　
当你们用你们那可贵的手指着说我错时，　你们凭什么？？？　

当你们用你们那可贵的手指着说我有没有想过为何会这样时，　
你们又有为自己想想你们又会好到那里去？？？

当你们都说家族工最好打时... 请记得 ... 当你真的做了你才有资格来告诉我说这份工是否好...

曾经, 我笨的以为就算是家族的工.. 但是, 工是工.. 家是家..

所以, 可以的话我不早退... 上班尽量不迟到.. 就算真的迟.. 我也尽量的做迟些再离开... 从来午餐不外出．．不要求加薪 . . . 不要求福利... 不要求年假... 早前严重得病到死都不拿病假...　可以做的就算是洗厕所.. 当小弟... 什么我都做... 因为... 这是所谓的家族的工...

但是, 我错了..... 我错得超级夸张....

原来,家族的工.. 可以迟上班不内疚... 可以2个小时午餐... 可以提早离开没关系... 原因??? 因为不爽??? 还是太爽呢??? 我真的超级太佩服了　！！！这种人晚上, 他们可睡得稳??? 出粮时, $ 可拿得安心呢??? 或许... 他们都会吧 ... 我只能说, 呆在这里10年了... 可能呆得笨了.. 呆得头脑坏了..呆得不够他人做人要看什么人讲什么话给什么脸... 我的确笨死了... 学的都是张臭脸... 所以, 我承认我很失败....

10年的工... 没功劳也应该有苦劳... 我也从来不奢侈的要求任何的称赞.. 只要不要有做错... 已经是谢天谢地... 但是, 原来家族的生意.. 未工作满一年就可以要求称赞, 更厉害的是就算做错也不可以被纠正.."老板"要自行的修正...

我真的笨啊....

不过, 我真的很感恩 . . . .

我感恩那些让我看清这世界上, 原来不只是做戏才看的到的"戏"子 ....
我感恩那些看不起我的人 . . . .
我感恩那些让我懊恼的人 . . . .
我感恩那些总是说我错的人 . . . .
我感恩那些跟我吵 ~~诅咒我~~的人 . . . .

我真的很感恩所有发生在我身上的事与我遇见的人 . . . . .

我奢侈的希望, 有那一天, 我也可以像你一样告诉全世界... 我感恩因为我有"家人"的支持....
很可悲的事. . . 此时此刻 . . . . 我感觉不到. . . .

是我无能. . . .

所以, 我的家人都认为我无能. . . . 我的错 . . . 我的不对 . . ．我应该改　．．
如果是"家人"的话，为何我从来没听过是她人的不是, 她人的错, 她人要改呢???
连基本的信任我都感觉不到　．．　又谈何＂支持＂呢？？？　

其实，　我要的东西都很简单．．．　
只要相信我已经改了，变了就够了．．．　但是，　谁相信了呢？？　

我真的没变吗？？？

这只是一再的重复告诉我　．．．．　我并不属于这所谓的＂家＂　．

看到这，　或许还是有人会说我错．．．　没有不互相支持的＂家人＂　的．．．　

我的确希望如此．．．　或许，　会有那天，　我再告诉你．．．　当我感觉到时．．．　

最后，　

还是那一句．．．．　＂日久见人心＂　会有一天，　你们会发现．．．．　我是对的.

起码，　我承认我错过．．．　你呢？？？当你可以捂着你的良心过你们互相信任的日子时.... 我会祝福你们.... 要久....

我感恩... 我做了选择.....
我感恩... 你们让我做了选择....
我感恩... 我重生了!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

或许，　新的路不会好走．．．．
但是，路是走出来的．．．　
有一天．．．．　小路也会变大道．．．．　

我相信！！！！！　

至少，　今天过后，　我会是快乐的！！！！　人因为梦想而伟大．．．　我好伟大啊！！！！　＾＾＂

ATTRAVERSIAMO !!!!!!!!!!!!!! 　（　let's cross over !!!!! )

P/: 我说不代表我投诉。。我写我想不代表我坏。。长有张臭脸不代表我不快乐。。我还是感恩的起码我对得起自己，就够了，不是吗？？ *给自己拍拍手＊看开点就没事了。。。

加油！加油！加油!!!!

嘛的，既然没有半点不舍。。

10:10pm

~* 3rd step ... *~

2010-11-24T23:57:00.000+08:00

Going thru ...

Hopefully it goes smooth ...

Final decision.. SET !!!! Thx to moi lovely toi for the hard works !!!!

it !!!!

Urgh ... Exciting !!!!!

you'll never find it's tired whenever you doing the works you in love with ... Thats what I found recently ...

*being thankful*

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~* 2nd step .. *~

2010-11-23T19:14:00.001+08:00

Exciting exciting !!!!!!!! Moi 1st design ... Still need some more correction/improvement I knew ...

So many task / idea to do / think yet very little time i have.

Gambateh desu neh !!!!

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~* moi precious ... *~

2010-11-22T19:11:00.001+08:00

1st step ....

WELCoME to moi GORgeOus Ave. !!!!!!!!!!

It makes a different/new you --- to be gorgeous for sure !!!!!

Wish me luck !!!!!! Lotsa if u can !!!!!!!!!!!

Stay tuned peeps !!!!!!!

P/s: Gorgeous are not available hence there is an ave for avenue !!!!!! :D glamour anot ???? There is an avenue for u to be gorgeous !!!!!! Awesome !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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~* 1st trial *~

2010-11-21T23:40:00.005+08:00

1st trial on my "sketchup" works ...
demmit !!!!!!
i'm a genius ... am i ???

downloaded the sketchup ..
go thru the intro video at once..
spent 2hrs+ ..
and i'm DONE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AWESOME !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i got my own 3D works ...
don't play play ... do you ???
==''

never judge moi book by moi covers peeps !!!!
*blessssing*

step to steps ... i'm in JOY !!!!!!!!!!!
*nervous & exciting too*

~* 梦想 *~

2010-11-20T12:52:00.000+08:00

人因为有梦想而伟大。。。

今天，很值得纪念。。
是时候自己为了自己的梦想而伟大了吧？？？

加油！！加油！！我对自己说。。。

只要相信就一定行！！！！

成果虽然重要，但是过程应该更值得纪念。。

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~* supaaaaa Fungry *~

2010-11-19T17:01:00.001+08:00

I definitely can eat a " cow " now ... I'm suppoppaaaaa dupppppaaaa fuuuuuuuuuuungry !!!!!!!!!

Ever since I'd a diarrhea last midnite ... Every 15mins I'd crawl out from bed to have a "poo" ... Really fml ...

I was unable to count how many time of it but the pain on the stomach are darn suffer .. I'd wait the day to come n seek for treatment .

God demmit so miracle of the injection !! No more poo & pee afterward and I fall in sleep frm 10am - 2pm .. *wonder why whenever I'm in mc there must be tones of calls n SMS and everyone is in urgent !!!!* -.-" my life !!!!

And now I felt like I can eat an " cow" !!!! Literally it's a description to show how hungry I'm. -.-" Doc said the treatment need to be on empty stomach for 24hrs . And it's really fuccccccck how can I stay hungry for so loooong ??? I'd poooooooo alots since last night .. I'm serious it's darn lots .... So I can felt my stomach is empty now .

Its make lotsa sounds inside since I'm awake

Anyhow I do want to listern to the doc even I don't know why .. Perhaps everyone include myself is curious about why I fall in so much sick recently ..

Before that, I might be mumbling about myself too , I might blaming everything for the cause but now I felt even I don't know why but at least at this moment ..

I felt I'm alright with it .. I mean I'm alright with the sick . Perhaps my body is telling/warning/alert myself for my own body conditions and it's adjusting itself to getting better ..

So I should be really positive on it .. After it "detoxing" my blood to get me a healthier nose to get fresher air and now it's "detoxing" my poo and to get me a healthier
Stomach so I can have healthier nutrition after I'd healthier food. So it's fair and square I'm sure.
At least I no longer worry about the dirty "Blood" I drank or tones of pills I'd before as It's all GONE !!!!!

I BELIEVE and I TRUST myself ... Imma getting HEALTHIER !!!!! DEFINITELY I'm sure !!!!!!!!!!!

So I'd to be HUNGRY for another 15hrs+++

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~* Fear kills everything ... *~

2010-11-18T14:55:00.002+08:00

Fear kills everything ..
your mind , your heart , your imagination
- via Cornelia Funke-

Definitely it is ..
Glad i'm over ..

my mind is fulled of lotsa imaginations right now ...
my heart is keep telling my mind,

i'm good,
i'm healthy,
i'm happy..

and so do i'm good !! i'm healthy !!! And i'm HAPPY !!!!!!

i see the light ... do you ???

*happy*

~* 1 2 die .. *~

2010-11-09T13:50:00.002+08:00

After seeking so many specialist ..

Neurologist for migraine ..
Which after had half pill of the medicine ..
I'd fall in sore-throat continue with fever come and go ... :( and flu afterward ..
*demmit hate it*

Opthalm0logist for the blur eye ...
Doesn't help at all pun as they said had something called floater in my eye which can't take it off via medicine and they got not explain for why the floater is dropping off ..

Fuck !!!! I'd to be ~~Blind~~ Blur for another month???

The appointment cardssss ...

And now ....

I'm still sick AGAIN !!!!!!!!!!!!!
Urghhhhhh !!! FUCK MY LIFE !!!!!!!
I know !!!! Everyone is
when heard of it .. So do I !!!!!!!

Whoever love to fall sick ??? I'll want to stay healthy too !!!! i'm so wish for the healthy tho.
Does anyone know how pain I'm ???
All I heard is take good care .. But how ??? HOW ??? HOW ?? HOW ?????????

Nobody know how I want and how I wish to stay healthy ..I bet for N-O-B-O-D-Y .. !!!!!!

I seriously deeply feel 2 die the moment I saw the pills , and suffer the pain ...

I'm in soooooo much pain which I can't tell anyone tho.

The fever, the flu , the sorethroat and I vomit a lot even I only had white plain bread !!!!
Darn fuck !!!!!!! I want tooooooooooo DIE !!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm soooo useless to unable to take good care of my self !!!!!!!!!!!! perhaps i'm born to be a sick worm !!!!! demmit !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

really FUCK my life !!!!

p/s:
maybe i really want to die just i don't want to die now yet . =='
maybe i really want to die just when everyone ask me to take k .. but how ???
maybe i just don't want to die and i just want to say i want to die .. CAN ????

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~* end of yr *~

2010-11-01T01:29:00.001+08:00

As the bday celebration for sassy is done .. Meaning there is an end for the yr ..

We had korean BBQ ..
I didn't had meats still .. And there is another 2 bubbles are half vegan as well ..

Wonder why both of them can be so slim while I'm still ... F-A-T !!! Yay.. Fat I knew .. Cause u love Rice !!!

Everyone laugh on me when I got my rice .. *duhhhhh...*

Pan cake is nice !!! 年糕 is good !!!

It's November ..
It's end for the bloody nose medication .. hopefully the infections is gone.
As ... My left eye is still blur while my hair ...

Had fall a LOTs !!!!!!!!! Real alots!!! Demmit !!!!!!!! This is only 10% of my daily fall .. Haven't count the one fall inthe toilets and on the bed ...

Pray for a better NOVEMBER ...
*om*

P/s: what had I done all this yr pula ??? Hmmmm....

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~* don't geddit .. *~

2010-10-29T00:00:00.001+08:00

It's not really hard to be half vegan to be true ..

Toi said I'm losing some weight which I don't think I'd .. But maybe i'm just for really little..

I'm really ok for not having any meats this .. Emmm... 20days .. !!!!! I'm just alright as I still had lil fish , lil tiny prawn and vege with lots of rice ..

I just don't get it why it's so weird that I don't want to have meat for a period of time ???

I'm wonder do I trouble anyone with it ??

Maybe I'm .. As toi had to tolerate with me that I'm not having meat but I'm alright if the vege cook with meat I just don eat the meat while I still had the vege tho .

Sis , mum and dad nonstop mumbling about that each time we had dinner -.-"

I told ya .. My family's member pampered me with lotsa ~~meats~~ love ...

But I'm really alright tho . Instead of not having meats I'm much more suffered if there is no rice allow for me .. Without rice, roti ... I can just DIE !!!!!!!

Seriously ... You knew why ??? See my face .. "Roti/sushi" face and you knew why...

I still can have sushi .. !!! So .. Don't when I'm not having meats .. Plssssss...

I'll try to had it back when I'm ready ..

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~* 一莫 *~

2010-10-26T19:05:00.000+08:00

"今天你好吗? "
"嗯.... "
"好.... "
"为何好??? "
"因为... 还活着... "
"不好... "
"为何不好..???"
"因为... 不知为何还活着.. "
"不是的酱的．．．"
"人是因为活着而精彩.. 还是精彩的活着... ???"
"目标呢?? "
"理想呢?? "
"行动呢?? "
"病．．．"　
"借口．．"
"懒．．．"
"理由．．．"　
"想动．．．"
"痛．．．"
"累．．．"

．．．．．．　乱．．．．．．．．　

"正能量．．．正能量．．．"

~* half BUTA *~

2010-10-25T19:12:00.000+08:00

Went for 2nd check up last weekend. Being charged for another bloody expensive antibiotic of 7pills for rm100.

Lil infections for the Nose still..
"cleaning" is still needed tho.

Hopefully I didn't drink lots of it otherwise , later will be lots "stones " inside my body then I definitely can die..

Not sure does the pills or the "angiogram" cause.

My left eye having some seeing problem.

When I close my right eye ..

My left eye see this ..

When I close my left eye ..

My right eye see this ..

And when I opened both eye ..

I saw this ..

I'm getting dizzy and migrane most of the time after discharged .

Doc said literally the surgery and the sinus won't cause this but still she suggest I may seek for neurologist and ophthalmic instead . hope I get the neurologist correct and not like the "angel-gram"

Anyhow Toi said might be I bling'ed too much ???

Or I read too much ???

But it can't be.. If it did how come my right eye sight is ok ???

We went for the draftly checking at the optical shop in the mall and apparently the machine can't read my left eyes degree for the 1st time I went .

Then I tried again for the 2nd time the next day at different shop . The staff got shocked for the reading and he said it can't be as my left eye having nearsighted of 1950 degree which I'm sure that's is half blind for my left eye .

I gotta praying hard that infections gone faster so the medication period end faster then my left eye will recover soon.

Seriously I don't wish when I gotta go shopping with this

And I had to go with ..

This too ...

I wanna get healthy !!!!!! Plzzzzz ...

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~FRESH AIR ~

2010-10-20T17:40:00.007+08:00

Recall it back ..

08102010

I was giving some nostril drop , spray and this mentol thingy to smell in the ward to clear my nostrils .

I thought I'm getting better and I even thought of leaving the ward and sleep at home that night.

Dad,Sis & SIL came over to visit, I was still alright , then friends pay another visit. Before they leave,I felt so bad that I think my bloooody nose had shocked them.
*guilty*

The bloody nose keep bleeding for the 2nd time while we happily chit-chating.I felt some liquid is dropping thru my throat again.I asked for tissue and I split and it showed.

I was in real worry in fact but I try not to show how sad and worry I'm when my friends is around as I felt bad to get them worry too but still I felt I'm failed.

Doc showed up ard 11pm and I can't tell how pain it is when the doc put a ~~tampon thingy~~ pad in my left nostril try to block the bleeding,he can't sure will it help but stil he had to put the pad in . It's soooo fucking pain till toi and others heard my "scream" while the doc putting it in when they waiting outside the ward.

I grabbed the doc hand and he just "slot" the pad in hardly to my left nostril and spray some salt water to soften the pad to block my bleeding.I screamed and shedding my tear while they wipe off my bloody face.

I felt to cry out loud for the pain but I knew it will caused much more worry for toi and others so I shed off my tears and try to put back a ;) on my face no matter how pain I'm .

They left and I silently pray myself wishing so hard there will have someone to hear me and grant me for a safety night ..

Seem my prayer is not strong enough ..

09102010
2:30am

I felt the bleeding once again from the uber uncomfortable sleep.. I rang the bell and the nurse can't hear me . They moved sovslow while my nose bleeding so fast.

I got them to call doc once again and I knew some of them got shocked to see the bleeding too.This time the blood didn't go thru the throat as the pad had blocked it so it's "flush" out via my nostril I try to grab as much tissues as I can to wipe off the bleeding and I got them to give me the ice while the nurse just stunt to see how scary my bleeding is ..

I can't remember was I crying or was I screaming but seriously i felt so helpless to see the blood on the tissues ..

I saw there is much longer pad they got which they try to block my bleeding nose.I hate to recall that moment .. Doc came and said he had to just block 2 side of my nostrils try to release the tension of the left side see whether will it stop afterward.

He kept say sorry to me as the longer pad cause much more pain. I knew as i screamed out loud and cry out loud the moment he "slot" the pad in on my right nostril. I even grabbed his hand hard refuse to let him do so but then the pain make me weaker and all I can was just crying .

Things never ends, doc pulled out the previous pad from left nostril and replace the longer one while I'm still struggle, crying and stil in pain.I was so helpless again, the nurses just wiping off my tears with blood while I'm still shedding my tears in fear with lotsa pain.

Seem the doc don't have any treatment for me, he suggested he shall transfer me to another hospital for a suitable treatment to stop the bleeding, he went on the checking while I'm siting alone in the ward with some ice-cube which the only hope I had that it'll stop the bleeding tho.

I keep praying myself hoping time pass fast, hoping day come fast so that I can call up toi or dad for some help or mayb some support as I really so helpless.

But my prayer are so weak I'm sure . Doc told me that he found a treatment and doc which suitable for my bleeding nose and without any hesitate I just nod & pray that this will really help.

They called and arranged for the ambulance transfer while I being transferred to icu @ 3am+ in the early morning to wait.

I sms'ed toi to come ovr for some transfer procedure. I was so sick and pain but I told him not to worry that I'm alright.( He told me he got shocked the time he saw me in the icu afterward as my nose was swelling cause of the 2 pads in my nostrils.) he is succeed to prevent he is alright to see me that moment just like I tried to put a : ) on my face when I saw him.

I felt released to have him there.He came to me rubbed my head and gave me a hug and hand it do really gave me lotsa hope I must said.

Time passed slow still while the procedures done and transferred to another hospital.

5am+ I was in EA bangsar pantai .I been transferred to another icu with lotsa plug on me while wait for doc .. I felt so calm while they "works" on me, perhaps I'm tired, real tired.

They said doc will be there for me when the day come .As time passed I felt the both pad in my nostrils fulled of blood as it's block my throat which caused my chest pain and I hardly to breathe. The throat getting dry and pain as the previous blood I "drank" is dried and full.

After I being cleaned they let Toi to see me.. He came over to give me a hand again and i felt safe. We both tried to be calm which I knew he is so much worry to see me with so many plug and swelling on my face.

*seriously i got shocked to see this swelling nose afterward*

He left and I'm being alone in icu again.
I prayed so hard myself.
I prayed I'll get over the surgery asap.
I prayed I'll get healthier.
I prayed my angels do really heard me.

And I guess they did. They told I'm going for a surgery called "angel-gram" the moment the doc walk in I felt ALRIGHT !!! That's my " angel " came and I knew I'm gonna be alright. ( but which Angiogram is the actual name of the surgery tho.. Darn failed of moi !!!)

After all the story telling, diagnose, surgery procedures explained and paper signed. It's officially I'm gonna be sent in operation room for the bloody nose afterward.

They unplugged me from the ICU room all the way to the so-called "angel" room I just felt CALM. Seriously CALM .

That was my first time in a surgery room. Moi sis told before that it's so scared while in an operation room but its just alright for me.Perhaps I'm much more worry when I see the bloody nose.

The "angel" room was really cold and its pack with lotsa nurse , doc, equipment and lots of computer screen . The room ain't as silence as what we see in TVB drama which we think it should be or maybe my case was abit in rush and sudden hence they sent me in still while wait for the ENT doc come that's why Lots of ppls talking in the room which makes it's not as scary as what I think it should be. Lots of question asked which I can't remember afterward. I just felt they talked about me , discuss about me and putting really another batch lotssss of plug on me.

Then the anesthesiologist came last and he gave me an injection and put me an oxygen mask then ..... i'm ~~gone~~ ZzzZZzzZZZzZZZzZZZz .....

..................... N hours later ......................

"Girl .. girl ... Girl .. hello girl ..." *pat pat*

I heard someone calling me ..
someone ~~slapping~~ patting on me.
i heard them but i can't move ..
they patted on me even harder.
i tried to move my finger to show i heard them.
But they keep "slapping" me and keep calling me ...
i tried to open my eyes and i did open for 1sec maybe ??
i heard lots of nurse & doc are talking again ..
i guess i was safe & back in the "angelroom" !!

i felt dizzy ..
Someone pressing my leg ..
Someone moving me ..
Someone sealed my wound ..
Someone put me an oxygen mask ..
Someone moved me aside ..

i KNEW .. i'm ALIVE !!!!!
i felt to cry ... but i'm so weak.
i felt hard to breathe and i'm choking follow with a vomit.
Someone cleaned me ..
i told them i can't breathe with a very weak voice ..
Someone put back the mask on me..
Someone talked to me ..
Someone asked me to breathe via my mouth..

i told them i'm cold ...
with my eyes close ...
i can't even open my eyes ...
Someone gave me another blanket to make me warmer...
i told them my throat is in serious pain ..
Someone answered me ..
it's alright girl .. you are safe ...

i asked what the times is now ??
Someone told me its 12:35pm ..

OMG !!!!! i been in the "angelroom" for more than 3 & half hours ..
i'm sure Toi & others must be worry on me ..

Someone moved me to somewhere else ...
I opened my eyes so hard for another 2 secs ..
i was in ICU room..

*i just felt to T.T each time i saw this ..i'm sure TOi is much more sad to see this *

i heard ENT doc came in to check on me ..
i heard the ENT doc talked to someone ..
i opened my eyes again for another 2 secs ...
it's TOI !!!!

i think i : ) ... but with the mask on i don't think they see it ..
or maybe i'm too weak to show a : ) on but i remember i was : )
the moment i saw Toi ...
i tried so many times to open my eyes ... just to have a look on him to show i'm safe ...
Then i guess he did came over and gave me another hand .. i felt super CALM and SAFE ..
i told Doc my throat is really in pain .. And doc explained which i forgot now.
I think doc told Toi i'm safe but i'll sleeping still and asked him to come over afterward.

i think Toi rubbed my head , gave me a kiss before he leave..
i assumed so .. which my memory is getting worst for that .. =='

i knew i keep fall in sleep for that moment ..
i opened my eyes ..
then i fall in sleep ...
i opened my eyes again ..
and i fall in sleep again ..

Hours ago, i heard someone ... i tried to open my eyes for few times again and i saw dad .. still i felt tired and dad show me a sign not to talk and continue to sleep.

Then i slept for don't know how long .. i'm awake when nurse gave me some water for my serious sore throat . Then i drank and i vomit again ... then nurse gave me some ice cream with ice water .. i'd it just to freeze my throat . And i fall in sleep again after and i heard dad again ..

He tah-pao'ed "hot stuff" for me which scared the nurse (as i can't have any hot food yet ) and it's became Toi's dinner afterward. =.="

Then Toi came before dad leaved.

And i'm here .. ALIVE !!!! ... This is the way i show i'm : ) as i can't open my mouth .. =='
i'm still in the ICU room till 10/10/10 noon .

10/10/10 8am
This "Cold" fish porridge is the 1st meal of moi since 08/09/2010 . (which my last meal is on 6pm 08/09/2010)

Say bye bye to this thingy ...

And this too .. it's awfully pain ... T.T

Here is the wound of my nose while there is still something inside to protect the wound inside.

11/10/10 8am
This is my breakie before i discharged . Which i can swallow only one plain roti so hard ... =='' darn hard ..

Here's my doc .. my "Angels" ... even they charged really lots on bill . =.="

i remembered my prayer to get back moi FRESH AIR.

i'm trying so hard to be half vegan now as my family's member is all "meat-lovers" hence it's so hard if i want to be a full vegetarian. Anyhow , i agreed with never say NO to any food/vege/meats but as for my prayer i at least have to try to say no to meats (with legs) for a while . That's my promises.

I think i'm quite success, at least since i discharged and its been 10days i didn't had any meats besides some fish . But i just had very little vege also as my mum really cooked very lil vege tho. and they kept ~~poisoned~~ pursue me at least to have lil of meats . my family's member just love me and feed me with ~~meats~~ LOVE !!!!

Be healthy and stay alert peeps.

Thanks for anyone who concerned and cares.

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~101010~

2010-10-10T07:08:00.002+08:00

Blogging frm an ICU room is not fun at all I'm serious.

7:04am in the morning waiting for the doc, with so many "plug" on me cum itchy hair is so annoying..

But I'm so thankful I'm still ALIVE !!! With this I promised myself try to b half vegan for at least half to one yr..

I seriously want to be stay healthier for my toi,my family and my friends who concern about me. Let others to worry on me make me felt so bad , real real bad.

Kthxbai .

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~* a day to remember ..*~

2010-10-08T13:31:00.003+08:00

As usual the alarm rang. He woke up to stop it while I turned myself to my "weird" sleeping position to the right side face downward...

I was thinking to " nua'ing" for another 10mins and I felt some liquid moving in my nostrils while I tot it's my blocking nose ???

I felt weird and it's seriously so weird that I didn't sneeze, I don't get any flu nor fever but I felt there is some liquid dropping/ "leaking" to my pillow...

I try to wipe it off and found It's real liquid Im not dreamming .. I open my eyes .. And I saw it's lotsaaaa blood.. I called toi and he get shocked and pass me some tissues .. I told him my nose non stop bleeding .. I was in nervous.. Real nervous.. I felt the bleeding is serious from my nose thru my throat..

Toi said don't swallow it just split it.. But I can't help myself to split it or mayb I did but I forgot ???? I walk in toilet and try to clean my both darn " blooooody" hand and my mouth .. I got shocked.. I saw my blooody mouth and I split the blood I guess.. Full of blood in the bowl ..

I felt I was crying and I told Toi... I shall go clinic.. I can really felt the bleeding is getting serious and it's just not a good sign ..

I keep swallow the bleeding blood thru my throat .. It's yucks but I can't resist to split it while my nose is non-stoping bleeding as well tho. It's like I'm "drinking" my blood -.-" I'm so darn scared and I knew Toi is much worry than me.. I felt so bad.. Real bad.( but Toi told me he'd to experience it once again in future it's quite similar with "omg BB I felt it's time I'm going give birth of our baby . -.-" a nice joke to release my bad )

Toi sent me to clinic nearby and we met dad and he got shocked and said I shall just go to hospital ..

I was in panic real real panic when I felt the serious bleeding thru the mouth and nose and I tot I was gonna die at any moment liddat but choiiiiiiiiiiiii.. I'll just pengsan when lose too much blood and definitely not die right ?? Or maybe i'll which I don't know ???

But Now...

I'm here ... 9:30am in EA.. 10:30am met the ENT doc .. 11:30am blood test ,ct scan, urine test and 12pm I'm in a wad with some "vitamin" hanging on. Doc said to prevent it's bleeding again and he didn't knew how much blood I'd lost so I'd to put the "vitamin" just in case I won't pengsan when it's get bleeding again ..

For the past few hour Im non-stoping shedding my tears for being bad and let toi and my dad so worry .. I'm not a good gf nor a good daughter tho but from the moment ago I promised myself today onward for whatever toi and dad said will always is RIGHT. I'm gonna be good/better gf/daughter I promised.

I felt so thankful for having them by my side... And hopefully I won't dream of the " bloooody" morning anymore ..

The things is I don't felt any pain nor any sickness the day before .. Wonder why .

I shall appreciated it mayb if there is any sickness this at least is a sign .. Hopefully is just some minor sinus tho .

Good nitez..

I love u Toi !!!! And I love u Dad !!!

Ohh.. I'm alright no worry I just need rest I think .. No need pay any visits .. Thx for concern.

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~* i heartz ..*~

2010-10-07T12:58:00.002+08:00

i *heartz* myself ...

whenever i saw myself laugh like this ...

i felt the happiness myself ..
don't you feel so ??

my intent today ..
i want the laughter & smile stay with me alllllllways ...

~* 困 *~

2010-10-01T14:36:00.002+08:00

人 ....

总是容易被＂困＂
．．．　
被自己所＂困＂　？？？

我需要好多好多好多的正能量 !!!!!!
我以为我够了　．．．　
但是，　我像是却步了．．．　

正能量勒　！！！快来啊！！！！

~* routine ..*~

2010-09-29T17:23:00.001+08:00

2 clinics, 2 doc and 2 clinics bed I'd lie on today ....

Left : "candy" to kill the infections of throats .. Demmit !!!! Sjmc are giving those rubbish packing plastic bag while they charge so much ...-.-" cisssss ..

Right : "candy" to kill the hormone of throat .. a standard packing plastic frm an old clinics I went ... 6 weeks times I lost 2kg .. I hope it's a good sign but it's always disappointed when I lost weight !!!! Sighz ...

正能量勒？？？？

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~* 十五。十六 *~

2010-09-24T01:14:00.002+08:00

十五的月亮 vs 十六的月亮

十六的月亮最圆！！！

因为我出生在十六 *\^.^/*

中秋节快乐！！
玩了月饼，吃了茶，喝了灯笼，点了瓜子，拨了蜡烛了吗???

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~* CHANGES *~

2010-09-22T13:07:00.002+08:00

Everyone thinks of changing the world,
but no one thinks of changing himself.
- Leo Tolstoy.

I'm changing myself ...
i do ... i think ...

On top of that ...

i need a new name ...
or instead of "Beaus Zon" still ???

*think think think*

Bless me !!!!!!!!!!!!

~* 不听。不想。不问 *~

2010-09-14T18:34:00.001+08:00

如上。。。

最好。。

不听。。因为觉得没必要。。
不想。。因为觉得没必要。。
不问。。因为觉得没必要。。

最好！！！

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~爱。变~

2010-09-12T23:45:00.001+08:00

去时，

我爱故我＂也＂在。。

回时，

想个变／便？？ -.-""

"You are today where your thoughts have brought you.
You will be tomorrow where your thoughts take you . "
-James Allen

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~幸福。快乐~

2010-09-10T10:36:00.001+08:00

阳光，沙滩，海浪。。。

好想好想真的好想时间就停留在这一刻。。。

幸福。。。可以那么的简单。。

太阳先生。。你可以再大一点哦。。

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~* 对话 *~

2010-09-07T18:46:00.002+08:00

她　：" 我要拿$把车期供完到12月可以吗?＂　
我　：＂为什么？车期不是每个月供吗?"
她　：＂如果有＄的话要供完都行，而且供到１２月也不过是两千多＂
我 : " 不好, 还是每个月供..."
她 : " 啊?? 那, 我不是每个月都要到银行?＂
我 : " 那, 叫他自己去供... "

接下来, 她还是拿了千多块去, 原来 , 她每个月都忘了供所以可以的话, 她想直接供完..
可笑吗???如果可以一次供完的话，　那还算是贷款吗？？利息又不会倒扣．

问题是... 有谁不是每个月都去银行呢??? 我还每天都去，　不是吗？？？

我看到的是, 很生气的千多块被"记下" ..
再来, 霹雳啪啦文件夹的声...
接着, 是张再臭不过的脸 ..

我知道, 没有人会相信. 因为, 连我自己也不信.

这是, 无声的抗议, 我知道.
只是, 今早, 公司还在谈着$的问题, 现在却来告诉我,为了不用每个月去供车期而要一次过给完, 合理吗???

奇怪的是，　我并不气，我也没看不顺．．．　

因为，　看别人不顺眼是因为自己的修养不够，　我想，　目前我的修养还不赖吧？？　

又或者，　我看开了，　又或者，　我将离开了．．．　好期待．．．　

~* 书虫 *~

2010-09-05T23:01:00.000+08:00

好想看完。。不急。。不急。。

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~* 斋诫月 *~

2010-09-02T19:47:00.001+08:00

适逢＂同胞＂们的开斋月。。我也凑热闹的约了友族同胞开斋去。。。

本来的开斋更丰富。。但是落在＂周六＂又适逢，＂泡沫＂姐妹的生日，所以。。。

等开斋的人还真多下。。。

奇怪的是。。他们宁愿不serve我的饮品。。都给我来杯。。＂红水＂ *怪* 我要热茶咯。。

不过，活在不同种族的国家也还蛮幸福的，只是往往多了些不用脑袋说话的山番所谓领导人，把本来应该美好的事都搞乱了。。

世界上，本来就不会有公平的事。。只是凡事看开点，互相的尊重，应该都可以和睦相处的。。。就是不明白如果要给他乱就恨恨的乱，不要搞了堆屎又要人扫，何必呢？*费*

总之，还是那句，无能的领导人造就无辜的人民。

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~* poser *~

2010-08-29T23:34:00.000+08:00

Super in <3 with this .... Darn Nais !!!!! I'm sure I'll getting better n better in future .. For sure ...

*namaste*

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~* 民歌餐厅 *~

2010-08-28T23:18:00.000+08:00

一個曾經我們都愛＂泡＂的地方。。

好懷念。。。

天使說：＂不去強求任何東西，就算是友誼也一樣。。不是每段友誼都是永恆的。。某些人只會陪你走一段＂路＂。。當他們走完了，自然而然會有另一個他會走進我們的世界代替。。。＂

或許吧？？回忆的都是美好的。。。

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~* addicted *~

2010-08-27T23:13:00.000+08:00

Unplan long holiday ...
Swimming plan is failed as its rain and therefore ...

Yoga again !!!!
Abit sad whn u found u grow rounder still even u exercise more n more ..

But there is something to cheer up..

We learned this today ... Its much more easier than i think.. I make it !!! Need practice to make perfect im sure ..

*happy*

And this is me alone ...

*namaste*

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~* horiiiiiyay *~

2010-08-26T23:11:00.000+08:00

蓝蓝的天。。白白的云。。
好想去海边。。真的好想。。
好想。。。好想咯。。

夕阳无限好。。

今天又是超級c粉丝。。

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~* plank pose *~

2010-08-25T23:32:00.001+08:00

Wowwww !!!!!! I'd a new experience for the yoga class !!!!
Partner in plank pose !!!!!

I'm not sure for the real name of it.. anyhow.. Its something like i draw above.. Haaa.. Its ugly i knew but i cant find it when i dont know the actual posr of it tho..

Yea.. I'm the red fella n the instructors is the blue one.. Omg !! I got the hensem instructor as my base.. Kaaakaaa...

Its actually easier than what we see...

I love partner yoga.. Sadly, toi is not into yoga ... So i'd to back to own yoga.. As i told him about this and he said orhhh.. No wonder.. Coz got hensem guy as my base ... ZzzzzzZzz...

But this is the 1st try of it and its sooooooo FUN !!!! Seriously i mean it .

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updates :

this the partner in plank pose .. i google'd ^^

~* R.I.P *~

2010-08-23T23:32:00.000+08:00

只想说．．．　

无能的领导人．．　造就无辜的市民．．　

同样的, 挟持人质的不也曾经是无能的领导人,才造就今天无辜市民的牺牲吗???

大选来临, 报名了吗??? 投票吗??? 公平的吗??? 我根本不想投．．．　
一味的反对派会是好的领导者 ??? 事实证明反对派当选,沦落到还是会被反对.. 只能说, 利益当前... 谁是谁??

天灾人祸还不够吗???
人... 真可悲...

* R.I.P *

~* hope *~

2010-08-23T00:39:00.000+08:00

I see a ...

rainbow with hopes ....

bless me .. Moi Angels !!!!

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P/s: a weekend i should remember always !!!! Thx .. Lots.. Real alots ...

~* day 5 ... *~

2010-08-18T23:27:00.005+08:00

GREAT !!!!

lung infections ..
chronic bronchitis ..
darn fail of moi ...

i got greeeeen kalerrrr pill !!!
==''

doc said it's bitter ( for the 1st time i heard so )..
but i didn't feel anything ( i felt abit numb an hour later ) ..
i lost the taste of everything i think ..
T.T

i asked why ??
Doc said might caused of some air pollution ..
or previous infections haven't 100% clear ..

WTF !!!!! i cleaned almost everyday for my room ...
even Toi said i'm abit toooooo cleanliness ..
i just can't stand for the dust .

but now .. it affected me !!!!
GREAT !!!!!

i'm just too weak ...
i guess ...

And so ..
i re-clean the room ..
confirm it's really clean ...

then ...

i got this blarrrdy expensive thing for help .

Hopefully it's really help to sterilizer the air for me .
pleaseeeeeeeee !!!!!

i really don't want to awake every early morning @ 6am to cough and vomit ..
it's sooooo pain for the vomit tho.
FML !!!!!

p/s: it's END for the days !!!!! yayy !!!!!!! a brand lil "i-baby" its on it's way ... : )

~* moi Quote *~

2010-08-17T23:55:00.000+08:00

难怪近来就是快乐不起来 ...

学着 .... 喘息 ...

~* day 4 ... *~

2010-08-17T23:28:00.001+08:00

a hardcore NIKE fans today ...

demmit !!!! forgot another NIKE jacket ..
-.-"'

i'm in love with the body stretching recently ...
when i felt the pain ..
i felt the better & deeper of moi !!!!!!!
good sign ??

o_O

~* day 3 ... *~

2010-08-16T23:14:00.001+08:00

continue with ....

B-L-A-N-K

but ... Toi is off early to "fulfill"moi BLANK day ...
*lucky*

p/s: Today onwards ... in De'Lulamaez .. Toi will be him ... Moi will be me of coz .. : ) *easy*
I heartz TOI !!!

~* day 2 ... *~

2010-08-15T23:54:00.001+08:00

satisfied ....

... death ...
- 15.08.2010 -

7 days + ....
for a NEW replacement !!!
*great* !!!

p/s:
mood - * superrrrrrrrrrr : ( *

~* day 1 *~

2010-08-15T01:04:00.006+08:00

"grocery" shopping can be soooooooooooooo F-U-N !!!!!
Really really really F-U-N !!!!!!!

P-I-N-K kalerrrrrrr Clip !!!!

darn Soooooooooooooooo NAISSSSS !!!!!!!
Can't wait to have our own house with more "grocery" shop !!!!!!!!

And ..

A new batch of Yoga clothes ...

to replace ...

I knew i'm FAT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Or sooooner gonna be more FAT !!!!!!!
T___________T
*super sad*

But ...

imma gonna ....

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BE STRONG !!!
YES !!!!!!

B-E
S-T-R-O-N-G GENz !!!!!!!!!!!

~* 13 ．五 *~

2010-08-13T23:48:00.001+08:00

1) 黑色星期五, 他说的 .

2) 黑色星期五, 七月初四凶日, 妈说的 .

3) 黑色星期五, 32对新人结婚, 报纸写的 .

4) 黑色星期五, 是假日, 不信"上帝"的当然不介意... 我说的 .

5) 黑色星期五, 手机 .. "擋掉" 了... *哭*

6) 黑色星期五, 好好的天, 下了场超级 "长命雨" . *湿完*

7) 黑色星期五, 好好的车边镜, 坏了.... *气* + *哭* .

8) 黑色星期五, 报告不理想... *无奈*

9) 黑色星期五，医生问：＂压力很大＂是吗?? 药再加点吧．．放松些.." *超无奈*

10) 黑色星期五，我问:" 不能照旧吗？？我会放轻松的＂他说：＂不好＂　*无力*

11) 黑色星期五，很多泪累 !!!!!!!!!!!

12) 黑色星期五，看完了.. ５天 .. 值得吗 ?? 不知道... 信＂主＂吗 ?? 不会．．对不起．

13) 黑色星期五 ..... 相信吗 ???? 不　 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

注 : 不要再打击我了 !!!!! 够了!!!!!!! * 我真的怕!!!!!!!!!! 很怕!!!!!!!!很怕!!!! 很怕!!!!!　真的怕!!!!! 可以了吗?????? 你听到了吗 ???????* T.T

~* 累 *~

2010-08-13T15:59:00.003+08:00

很 .............. 是 .............. 累

擦干 ...
再前进 ... 的累....

不明白...
为何 ...

~* 雲 *~

2010-08-12T22:05:00.001+08:00

成勾雲。。。什麼意識？？？

P／s：取消了意外的，我並不氣。。是時候適應了。。不是我的永遠都不會是我的。。。。

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~* 胖。幸福 *~

2010-08-11T23:47:00.002+08:00

鄭秀文說：＂

我不喜歡發胖。發胖其實也象徵著某種幸福。

那麼。。我是幸福的嘍？？

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P/s: Zumba class for the 1st day !!!!!!!!!!!!!! Naisssss !!!

~* yoga .. Again ??? *~

2010-08-10T23:32:00.001+08:00

Guy instructor for the 1st time of my yoga class !!! Wooooow.. Hensemnya... A lil too fast for thr class... Felt sooooooo rush !!!

The lucky thing is... I go with the flow !!!!!!! Darnnnnnnn siok !!!!! Okkkkkk Even I might slow for a few sec... But Im not "tersumbat" , not "ter-dizzy" or "ter-batuk" this time...

I'm not so sure but for the 1st time I think and i felt my body's voice!!! It's felt like.. I'm stretching till fullest and the body alert me and :" ok you got the stretch .." this the meaning of yoga I assumed.

I might not the strongest ,
I might not the tougher ,
I might not the best ...

But I'm what I'm !!! Yayy !! I heard it !!!! So nice !!!!!!!!!!!

Why i got so many baby hair huh ???? Can u see how "high" my "bun" is ??

Rebonding ???? Perm ?? Rebonding ??? Perm ???
O_o

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~* sleepy mon ... *~

2010-08-09T23:28:00.001+08:00

Arghhh... 5:30am - 10am.... Darnnnnnnn sleeeeepyyyy...

iPhone 4 !!!!!!!
Sometimes .. We don't have to have some so-called 10yrs + good fren to get what we want .. kaakaaakakaaaaa...

That's what I really really want !!!! Yayyyy !!!!!!

I got what I want !!!!! Thx shayangz !!!!

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~* 20個法則 *~

2010-08-09T01:33:00.002+08:00

拖了那麼久，只看到第六個。。。

心有點亂。。。
是本來的心就不靜吧？？

有待再修回。。。

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~* yay !!! *~

2010-08-08T23:53:00.000+08:00

I'd only 4hrs sleep for the weekend !!! Yay!!! -.-lll early morning received a msg n woke me up !!!!

I hope you earned $$ after 4days Elizabeth !!!! -.-lll dats a chain letter leh .. Telco company are earning your fwd MSG before you all get yours my dear ... @.@lll

And I'd dragon fruit for my brunch today !!!!! Yayyyyy !!!! I missed fruit !!!! Seriously miss !!!!! Darn da cough !!!!
Felt healthy with lots of vitamin from the fruit ... Haaahaa.. Darn stupid Ken!????

And had great dinner with "women" !!!! Another yayy !!!!

It's great when you found there is some ppl which might not really claimed themself as your best "buddy" but which we all do still shares some jokes, some gossip and some others matters / concern which makes me felt so warm for the sincere-ness.

It's so great with the weekend. It's end !!! Praying for a great Monday for a great start ... I'm sure it will ...

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~* yoga @ noon *~

2010-08-07T23:36:00.001+08:00

It's was my 1st time for the noon yoga class today and it's tougher than what I think it's should be.

It's my cough cause my lung getting lousier ?? or i'm getting older ?? I'm trying for daily practice recently, but my limit was just 30mins the most.. After the 30mins my breathe are not as smooth as it should be or to be correct is I hardly to breath .. I wonder .. I do keep breathing tho. Just it's can't be smooth and I felt I'm getting asthma on the half way.. -.-" WTF ????

And here.. I'm keep rolling last night... Haaahaaa.. This apps are sooooooo FUN !!!!! How acurate it is ??

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P/s : I should jot this down, today only I knew I'm crazy. Not I'm crazy because of myself or anything. But I'm being labeled as the crazy 1 since I'm attached, i assumed. That's what I heard from my so-called best buddy. I should be happy with this ... At least now I knew all this while why I'm being rejected or not in any invitation list after I'm attached.yea.. I should b happy with this.. Seriously .. At least there is a reason.

I really don't understand .. Why ???? Why everything or anything of me must because of him???? Why ???? * curious*

~* FML agn *~

2010-08-06T23:48:00.000+08:00

Fuck my life .. I knew...

It's yucks !!!!! Too heaty or the previous running nose caused it ??? Hmmm.. To heaty I assumed.

Another sleep circle... I love rolling !!!?!?!! WTF ??

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~* pathway... FML .. *~

2010-08-06T12:05:00.001+08:00

Once again ...

I'd to think about the pathway I'm on right now ... Especially this morning ... I'm ：' (

Once, gutsy bubble told me ... " choose the pathway once you think back on your age 50, you won't feel regret. Write your once script and do with what you dream with : ) you will success not because of you must become what ever you dream with but on the pathway you try it out, you are there already. Just figure out what you want first. "

I squeezed my brain out so hard after that for so looooooong of what actually I dream of this 30yrs I been go thru .. I'm so LOST!!! I found nothing .. Especially recently ... Real nothing I found.

What is the actual pathway I need to??? I want to ??? Or I wish to ???? It's so blank !!! And I'm so scared .. Real scared of this type of B-L-A-N-K . Now you know why ???? Ya.. Laugh on me you may...

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~* Aug'10 *~

2010-08-05T22:31:00.000+08:00

Aug'10 starts with the 1st workout which I forced myself to drag my butt to move on to *luckily* ... I'm sooooo lazy ... Wonder why..

Aug'10 workouts plan fall on tues,thurs & sat. Fri is optional.... Ehhhh !!!!!! I add in another day for this month eh!!! But watch me fail, the percentage of skipping seem quite high tho -.- lll

And because I dragged my lazy butt on to workout and I treat myself another better meal but the bento is just so so ... And I'd it alone too... I missed my bf Ken ???!!!? I missed him each time whn I'd to have meal alone.. Sighz.. before I met him.. I'll never had my meal alone outside (mean I'll only tah-pao bck la doiii.. Tak kan tak yah makan???) . At least I learned to be alone now. -.-

Suddenly I don't know and I can't get anyone for either a drink nor a meal besides him. Might It's enough for the rejection of my invites n it's ok I'm learned to not being invites anymore. That's so hurts.. *sighz*

That's my sleep chart last night... *dream so much* >.<

must be fighting v the bantal busuk tho. Haaahaaaaahaaa...

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counting mode

~* 2nd batch..*~

2010-08-04T22:46:00.000+08:00

Wonder why ..
Doc can't just one shot give me the expensive aka "geng-ier" antibiotic for the 1st time I seek him...

This cost me another rm50 (after the rm30) for the better antibiotic and I felt it did !! Slightly I think ... At least I'm not cough till vomit last midnite .

Caused of this blarrrrrdy cough.. I ate so well.. Well till I guess I loose a lil weight . Just a lil .. Real lil I assumed -.-lll so nothing to proud of tho.

Here's mine "wishlist" after I ate so well -.- for so many weeks ...

I missed sushiiiiii sooooooo muchiiii....

And I just had it alone moment ago ... It makes my ; D ... Cause I'm not happy today !!!! But now I'm feeling better ... I guess...

It's DVD times... And zzzZzzZzzZz... Nitez!!!

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Counting mode on :

~* Ju....ly *~

2010-07-30T22:44:00.000+08:00

Think I'm doing moi july's workout plan quite well...

I might skipped 1 or 2 class/workout but still it's better than nothing for me...

Some might said it's no use for skipping class/workout.

For someone who hate sweating or running like me ... I felt proud that I'd follow my plan even I skipped .

It's time to plan for the aug'10.

Times.... Flies....

For what I wanna blog about since June still under pending tho.Sighz... My writting/posting skill is getting as lousy as what I'm ... Real sighz...

Hello august !!!!! Gimme positive energy !!! Plzzzzz !!!!!

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~* 信者得爱 *~

2010-07-30T12:19:00.003+08:00

她一向是我的＂偶像＂　．．．　

应该算是吧？？？　*怀疑的说*

她真的很漂亮．．．　

要像她那么漂亮．．．　一个星期只可以吃两粒苹果再加不断的跑步．．．　

我真的办不到　,也很佩服的说 ...

我也有好多事想说，　
(又或者我已无话可说？？）

我也有好多事想做，　
（又或者我已无力的做？？）

我也很忧郁的说 ...
（我也想来个３年的假．．．或许３个月已经够了？？　）

难道　．．．．　我也必须要信＂主＂才会得爱吗？？？？　

不行　．．．

我相信我的＂天公＂　
我相信我的＂观音娘娘＂　
我相信我的＂菩萨＂　．．．　

此刻，

我想要条＂路＂　．．．
很认真的说．

天公，观音娘娘，菩萨．．
你们听到了吗？？？　

p/s: 庆幸的是，　我有个＂爱＂　．．．　谢谢你．　虽然有时会很＂懊恼＂但是.. 起码，在天公，观音娘娘和菩萨还没听到前，　至少还有＂你＂　听到．．．　有你真好．爱你哟~ ^.^

~* tah pao'ing *~

2010-07-29T15:00:00.000+08:00

All this while been think to get a nice (pretty or cute) and useful tuperware for "tah-pao" just in term of being more eco-friendly... *liar*

We found this in the sp night-market last weekend.

Wonder how long will it last but the seller said it can be "ting " (can re-heat via microwave I mean..) so my bf bought me 1 !!yay!! So lovely of my bf !! -.-

And I brought it out for "tah-pao" my lunch just now.everyone was giving me a weird eyes .. Mind u ?!!

The aunties asked me tah-pao for my niece or nephew arh?? So cute one?? Allo!!! I kenot be cute meh???

Why like that 1 ?? Can't b I must use the stainless steel "horse head" thing to "tah-pao" only it's for myself???I'm saving your plastic bag auntie !!!

Whatever lah.. The lunch is still nice and I felt it's nicer whn it's goes with the "cute Mickey "
Mind u !!!??!!!

Orh well , the medicine is kicking in... And I felt numb again.. Who the hell made this pill???

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~* dizzy ... Numb ...*~

2010-07-29T10:46:00.000+08:00

10hrs of rest last night...
Wasted tonnes of tissues...

The whole night "rest" is so darn dizzy caused of the world's "yuck-iest" pills n coughing syrup ( I hardly to say any pills is yucks!! But this really is.. ) T.T

I thought the pills wil l only caused of sleepiness but it's not ??!!! Or maybe yes?? But i felt numb.. Instead of sleepiness..

Ok.. Bck to be numb again..

Gudda night...

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~* I ... Infections ..*~

2010-07-28T15:54:00.000+08:00

唉。。。

又中招。。。

很進步了。。已經超過兩個月沒生病了。

痰太多。。吃中藥化痰太稀而又沒咳掉。。活該！

吓死。。。

老醫生又放假去了。。

飆冷汗，無精打采，提不起勁。。。白血球又過多嘍。。太好了！！！

醫生啊！快回來吧！！

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~* starbucks *~

2010-07-24T21:59:00.000+08:00

同樣的飲品，
不同的地點，
不同的陪伴，
不同的話題。。

感觸。。
妳們，都還好吧？？

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~* this is so lovely ..*~

2010-07-23T00:27:00.003+08:00

~* Have U ??? *~

2010-07-22T23:49:00.002+08:00

Kakak-kakak dan Adik adik sekalian ...

Have you " Pap smear " yet ??

I did mine and i'm SAFE "for this year" .. ^.^

Be Awareness than to be sorry ...

Find out More About Cervical Cancer

CHEERS ladies !!! :) <3

~* FIFA awards .. *~

2010-07-13T00:36:00.003+08:00

Saw the FIFA awards today ...
Nope .. i'm not a hardcore FIFA fans.. i'm just one of those who "sometimes" watch it especially when there is some "STAR" players. But sighz... the "STARS" are way too "STARS" .. think they are not care for this games while they got much more pays from their ads than play like a cow ..right???

Back to the awards...

DARMMMMMMMM !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY ????? WHY must the muller got the golden boots ???? he ain't as good as zidanne what ???? he don't deserved it !!!!!!!!! he cheated in the game with the spain !!!!! the muller is sooooooooo cheat !!!!!!!!!!!!! darnnn geram !!!!!!!!!! i seriously want to whack his face when he act .

why not david villa ???why not sneijder ??? why not others but is Muller ?? why they got the same goal and he got the award ??? the golden boots should goes to david villa as he got 5 goals while he didn't get any card. that's the point ain't it ?? mean he is behave for the games right ? Muller got 2 yellow card tho. his attitude is bad but why still deserved it ???

i seriously don't understand why muller, can somebody explain it ??? FIFA shall just reset a rules that for those player who cheated and who acted and proved by the recording are not qualify in any award in futures no matter how many goals they got or no matter how well they played, right ??right ??? right ???????

cissssssssssssss..... or acting are actually part of their games ??? watch this ....

*speechless*

still , DAVID VIlla and Sneijder is the MAN !!!!!!!!!! SPAIN deserved the fair play team. Uraguay worth a respect too . but never the muller nor GERMAN !!!!!!!!!

~* 世界.. *~

2010-07-07T22:21:00.004+08:00

世界是如此的大 ...

显得"我"是如此的渺小 ....

世界之大 ....
大到"我"根本分不清东西南北 ...
更别说 ...
搞得清楚，哪些国家的真正位置 ...
就＂世界杯＂来说 ...

除了美国，澳洲，韩国，日本和一些较为＂闻名＂的＂大＂国家．．
大概大概知道那里以外　....
真的就只有那么一点的"大概"
其他的一概 .. "yin-nah-neh" ?????

之前还~~开玩笑的~~说，
这届哪一个国家拿冠军　...
我们就到那里去 ~~honeymoon~~ holiday 的说 ...
** 发梦 **

看来是时候恶补一下下地理再好说 ...

~* 改变 ... *~

2010-07-06T14:43:00.003+08:00

i missed ...

those day with i "CHANGED" every 3months ...
i love this kaler sooooooooo much !!!
and i grow lot of white hair recently .. +_+
wonder will it become this soon ???

but

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i super duper UBER loveeeeeee this style !!!!!!!!!!!
moi idolz !!!

*think think think*

i very "hmm seh tak" for the "pony-tail/bun "

Am i getting older again ??

~* 彩虹 *~

2010-06-30T22:06:00.000+08:00

那裡有彩虹請告訴我
能不能把我的願望還給我
為什麼天這麼安靜
所有的雲都跑到我這裡

有沒有口罩一個給我
釋懷說了太多就成真不了
也許時間是一種解藥
也是我現在正服下的毒藥

---- jay chow

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~* 搞定 ....*~

2010-06-30T17:05:00.000+08:00

終於。。。

搞定了。。。
難得的一年是順利的。。要感謝我的寶貝超級貴的＂老電腦＂。。。我也老了。。。明年的現在我們會被淘汰了嗎？？

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~* used to be ... *~

2010-06-29T19:53:00.000+08:00

Recently, I found this ....

is the limit speed for me even I'm driving on the highway still 100km/h is more than enough for me .

FML... Is I'm getting older or my dardar( my car la I mean) getting older ??? I think I didn't mean to press the accelator even I noticed it's slow.Sometimes I even drove at 80km/h on the highway tho. *darn curious*

I told moi boy :" B .. I found I drove so slow recently ..last time I used to drive at least 120km/h on highway and sometimes 140km/h is the fastest but now I felt I just drive so S-L-O-W or said I'm ~~lazy~~ scared to drive ..I felt lot ppl honk'ed me !! *brrrr* "

He replied me :" Nooo bb... Yayyy You are just succeed and used to be my gf !!!!!!! That's why you are not used to drive anymore ... ( : "

Is that TRUE that I'm just used to be the gf as passenger than the driver,hence I'm scared of the speed ???? And is so weird for the "yayyy" to be happy at, righ?? Right ?? Righht ???? -_____-lll okla , it's not bad at all I assumed.

will I be more "cacat" when I'm really used to it???Following with .. BB, I don't know how to mam!!!B, I don't know how to think !!! I don't know how to bath!!! Definitely can't be , B I can't walk.. I definitely sure he can't help at all !!! I'm just tooooo overweight FML !!! I din't notice about the 2kgs gained with this month medication.

Luckily, it's gonna get better this month. And I got to loose some weight seriously, I SWEAR !!!!

Okla .. At least I'll try harder !!!! PROMISED !!!!

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~* a group of aunts ...*~

2010-06-28T14:23:00.000+08:00

Time : 2pm+
Venue : one of a klinik in ss2
Character : 2 pairs of aunts = 4 aunts

I parked my car ,saw an old aunt (70yrs+) walked with a "tongkat" and followed with an aunt (45yrs+) who fetch her with the BMW and parked the car far from the clinic and they are going to the same clinic as mine.

I'm so wonder why the younger aunt can't drop the old aunt in front of the clinic instead of letting her walked herself while she parked so far likes more than 6shoplots ? The things is there is lots of car park after the clinic tho.I guess might cause of the parking tix machine was just right in front her parking lot?

So I was seeing the old aunt walked darn slow alone while the BMW aunt busy with her parking tix n door. *darn curious*

Even after she paid da tix and fixing her BMW door she doesn't mean to hold the old aunt to cross the single way road while I did it!!! No!! I didn't hold her to walk but I mean to bring her cross the road. I didn't mean I'm so good but for sure the BMW aunt was really darn poor for her attitude tho.

She meant to walk faster than me to go in the clinic so that she can Q in front me.she left the old aunts walked alone instead of she stood in front the clinic door and showing her the annoyed face and pointing the chair in da clinic and asked her to sit while she sit far away from her.

And then there came another pair of the aunts .. This young aunt are so kind enough to hold and make sure the old aunt be safe and make her way right to be seated just right besides her. And while both of the old aunt sit together , i don't know why I felt sadness of the previous old aunt. She might have a rich son or daughter with a BMW car fetching her to clinic but stil she need to walk with her tongkat by herself while another old aunt she might only have a son/daughter with only myvi but she are being hold every step she walked and being pick up just right in front of the clinic.

And the BMW aunt stil let the old aunt walk herself into the doctor's room herself while she walked in faster than her. Weird isn't it ????

How terror is your BMW while you don't even know how to concern your parents ????

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~* W.H.Y ... *~

2010-06-27T19:04:00.000+08:00

We are lucky as Facebook & MSN is not ban in our company.

We allow to do so , does that mean we can just hook on it most of the time during working hours ???

Self management is so important i must said. Once a times or maybe just hook on it for some updates but just for shorts period of times is alright.

Don't be so calculative. But self-manage is the thing.

Working hours late , leaving early for baby or class, lunch time hook on net,before and after dinner hook on net, so how long for the working hours ??? boss coming pretending busy, boss leaving, facebooking. Type type type pretending working, turning the lappie pretending checking
boss coming smiling, boss leaving the face is shit'ing.

That's the new attitude i found which is so-called not "CALCULATIVE " which i should really really learn. That's to SURVIVE ! i'm tired for being good. Just BE FAKE !!!! BE as FAKE as you can then you will live your life as GOOD as you can. How nice ???

Sometimes i didn't said doesn't mean i don't know, and sometimes even i knew i don't think i should sound. But still , self management .

I will never understand why ????? WHY must pending all the things for not doing on desk and hook on line chatting, surfing, and does the working hours end before the dinner time ???? i'm facebooking as well but i didn't hook on it. i didn't upload any photo during office hours, i didn't chatting during office hours nor blogging while i'm really WORKS. i'm surfing and my working hours doesn't end before office hours.

YEA .. i shouldn't calculative , let it be. PEACE & BE FAKE !!

p/s : if anyone of you knew who i'm talking about just shares it. i blogged what i meant. That's nothing i should be FAKE in my own world.

~* Long Lost Friend .. *~

2010-06-20T23:28:00.000+08:00

19.06.2010

a gathering with a Long Lost Friend.
Apparently we met once or twice only in a yr.
i guess it might be a good things
as we sharing everything of the yr just in a noon .

for sure i felt its a good way to release or forget the sadness
while enjoying or having a fun talk with anyone ..
rather being sad for the whole day ..
That's why it's a tiring weekend tho ...

Elizabeth lim
the gal i 1st met is a MODEL.
yea .. she is my 1st MODEL
while i'm doing the 1st outing for my makeup course
back in yr 1999 or 2000.
i really can't recall.

This tall , fair and really nice MODEL are the one
1st bought me a box of sushi while i met her for the 2nd times.
And that's the reason why i'm start craving for Japanese food, i assumed.

and thanks to FB ..
we connected back last yr.

and here is the 3rd outing we had since yr 2009 March.
And she said we shall do more outing tho.

I hope i can introduce a bf for this pretty lady ,
hence
if you felt you are caring enough,
if you are tall enough (or don't mind to have a really tall gf ) ,
if you are lovely enough just inform me.
we may doing more outing in future tho .

marmalade cafe , BVII

cam whoring in act.

i'm wearing hers and she got mine .. ( :

Kawaii - pretty ..

Kawaii - fatty ...

Oh yea !! did i tell you she can be a good nutritionist ?
she eat well, exercise well and sleep well .
that's the key why she stay pretty all this while ..
i bet i can't do like her ...
as i just can't be a organic vegan .
i <3 meat !!! and my boy <3 meat too !!!!
i'll try just in term of become healthier.
But i don't want to be as slim as her.
As its way too skinny tho.
And i'm so sure she don't want to be as fatty as like me either.

you should gain a little more weight Elizabeth !!! ( :

~* CeleBrities blogger kot ?? ..*~

2010-06-20T01:00:00.004+08:00

i'm wonder how "accurate" shall a so-called "celebrities blogger"
blogged about especially when they being paid for the ads ..

Among them who's actually did tell the truth when they received any paid ???

This is the web which i saw lots of "celebrities-blogger" blog about
when they being paid??

and i joined as member since it's free just for fun ..
but ..

they are so unlucky i must said .

So co-incident , they are having sales of PRADA ..
and so-so-co-incident i visited the PRADA boutique the week before ..
and so-so-so-co-incident i liked a bag which is on markdown sales in the boutique ..
but of cause i didn't get it as its lil pricey even after the sales ..
cum i don't need any bag at the moment.
so i left ..
and so-s0-so-so-co-incident i saw the web having sales for the bag too ..

arghhh harrr ...
i must say AGAIN !!!

they are darnnnnnn UNLUCKY tho ...

the bag i saw in the boutique priced @ RM5900.00
and after 40% markdown sales its RM3540.00

guess how much it stated on the web ????

WTF ?????? it's fucking RM7360.00 ???
and they are even "so kind" to save your rm2757.00
... soooo darn NAIS !!!!!

Now ... let's do a calculation exercise again.
i LOVE calculation huh ???
RM 7360.00 - RM5900.00 = RM 1460.00
RM 4603.00 - RM 3540.00 = RM 1063.00

ain't this calculation is so funny ??
they extra charged the bag of rm1460.00
then they are so kind giving you rm2757.00 discount.
But while the rm2757.00 discount given they are still earning your RM1063.00

... now i'm confused myself tho...
to cut it short. When the boutique selling it @ rm3540.00 for the bag
why they are selling it "ON SALES " online @ rm4603.00 ???
*ponder*

Funny weiiiii !!!
now can any celebrities blogger tell me again ..
does this web selling @ the affordable price ???

And wait !!!!!

the web is BEST PRICE GUARANTEED !!!!!
who's guaranteed it huh ???
@.@

and FML .....

i saw the bag i want !!!!!!!
And it's not cheaper tho ..
"Smelly-smelly" i can get it @ USD 600 on burberry website which burberry itself guaranteed its authentic than this web don't know guaranteed by who ??

And is that Rm1357.00 i'll save ??? i really DOUBTED lorrrrrr !!!

i'll or i shall just delete the membership as well ..
but if i delete it how can i be a spy then ??
if one day they blocked me ..
i'll inform your then.
( :

~* 星期五。。*~

2010-06-18T19:03:00.000+08:00

不快樂。。。

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