~* DECEMBER 2011 *~

i'm no longer a good blogger or nope.. i never be a good blogger ... or so i never be a real blogger .. i just blog for myself ... zzzzz....

well, how sad .. November 2011 just passed without any memories in the blog tho .

but then , i can said NOVEMBER 2011 is the most meaningful month of the year 2011 . YES !! i ASSUMED and AGREED it is.

in the month, where i spent all the $$ in the month and that mean dec'2011 i'm gonna be so broke.. but thanks god. God always answered more than i asked i'm sooooo thankful.

finally Dec'2011 , the lil crib is done and we moved. it's gonna be a memorable month . i left the home where i stay for 16yrs, i left mum & dad where i stick to them for more than 30yrs. and NO .. i haven't marry yet .. as mostly all the $ spent on the crib , hence ... we have to postpone it.
but then , i felt homesick ... so horrible homesick when i moved.

for the 2nd day i moved i called mum and told her i miss her .. then i cry out loud, then while we going bck and packing i cried, when i saw dad and gave him a hug and i cried, then i hug mum and i cried again ... thy laughed on me said i'm lousy but mind you ?? that's my parents tho. i'm surely miss them ... never take things for granted. i can bet most of you never hug your parent right ?? for one day u didnt do so , u gonna regret then .

till then , i'm still learning how to manage a place where we called it home.. hence really lots i got to learn , but we had great daily routine wakeup at morning , having homemade breakkie, do some house work before leave for works.

hope, i got to learn more and hope toi got to help more :)

all i want to say is thank you & i love you to anyone of you , toi , mum, dad, angels ard me and god.

thank you.

~* not AGAIN ???? *~

been talked to toi kiddingly said few more days gonna be an anniversary and not sure will that happen again..

sighz... seem like its still bleeding tho.. 


hope sooner its gonna be alright... might b too dusty or too heaty???

~* REST IN PEACE dim sum .. *~

dim sum came to our family since yr 1999 which given by my sis's friend.. he was so tiny and fluffy when he came to our house..

frankly i don't like doggie much as i don't like the smell especially when they leaking me which dim sum loves to do so.

time past and dim sum been with us more than 11yrs... and he just pass away yesterday @ 04102011

mum called and said dim sum is dead , my heart sank to the bottom and the feelings is so weird. REAL WEIRD. it's like someone you live together with more than 11yrs and suddenly leaving you ... it's kinda SAD i must said.

we really keen to bury it or burn it, we don't feel like just throw it like a "rubbish", he just like one of our family member ..

anyhow mum had sent him to a better place hope he rest in peace..

i start tearing when i on the way home, when i saw his bowl of water then i start to miss him ..

i kept recalled the moment he stared at me while i washing and hanging cloths on monday just a day before he left.. he never stared at me that way honestly .. i think he just felt to say goodbye...

dim sum used to listen to my words most of the time...

dim sum used to have lots "kutu" once he ran out of the hse..

dim sum used to bark to stranger especially when we exist..

dim sum used to be so lovely sometimes .. just sometimes i must admitted.

anyhow still we miss him.. leaving the hse and didnt see him in the morning felt so weird... real so weird!!! i HATE this feelings !!!!!and i miss dim sum frankly !!!!!!!!!

hope he is in better n "kutu-less" world...

you gonna be miss always dim sum..

~* words *~

sometimes i apologize doesn't mean i'm wrong and you are right...
it just means i value the friendship more than my ego.

if your ego does worth so much, it just meaning all your friendship is worth so less... go and have fun with your little world ..

May all your life filled with lots of your EGO.

kthxbai

~* black wood day 3 *~

hello my knee ... i'm sorry to see u so ugly.. pls recover soon...

and pls the right knee faster show your "black green" i'm so worry abt your bone when i dont see the color of you..

~* black wood day 2.. *~

don't know how long it take to get off this thing .. ;(

~*black wood *~

Twisted my feet bang'ed myself on the dustbin, knee down on kitchen floor .. Both knee !!!!!! stupid moi ...

fall on floor not really sure did i twist my arm or palm..

i'm shaking and crying with nobody at home .. i can't felt my both leg .. but i felt the awfully pain on my both knee.. seriously blardy pain .. non stopping crying and lay on floor with my hand on my knee which i knew it can't cure the pain ..

10mins plus .. the pain got off but still i cant really straight my knee .. half crawl and half walk im back in my room .. texting toi an the flow get heavy .. i'm manja'ing .. And he is work and i just try to calm myself ..

seriously its PAIN !!!!!!!!!!!! T.T